Been going through a few changes the last couple weeks. I have finally gotten over the need for 10 to 12 hours a sleep every night. I now usually get 6 to 8 hours anymore. This has been going on for a little over a week. I’m still getting used to the new found extra time. I was so used to being rushed during the winter as I had only a few hours window of when I could run errands and schedule doctor appointments. So I think my sleep issues are cured. And I didn’t even have to take sleep pills for it. About the only thing I can think of I’m doing different is limiting my caffeine. When I do have caffeine it’s usually soda pop and only once or twice a day. I haven’t drank coffee in weeks. I’ve noticed I’m less jittery too since I reduced the caffeine.
I’m getting more active. I try to leave the apartment a few times a day just to get out and about. I’ll get out even for something as simple as going through the drive thru at McDonald’s for a couple cheeseburgers. I usually keep my windows open until noon. Since it’s almost summer now, it gets too hot to leave the windows open all day. We’ve had a nice and long enough spring I was used to leaving windows open most days. Started lifting arm weights a few days ago. Too soon to tell any real difference. Started taking multi vitamins again. I’ve noticed my aches and pains are not as pronounced now. I knew vitamin deficiency could lead to problems. I probably wasn’t getting enough as I tend to eat low carb and high protein diets.
But, not all the changes I’ve experienced have been positive. Found out my best friend’s mother is on hospice for cancer and isn’t expected to live much longer. Sad deal. So we’ve been chatting back and forth via Facebook quite a lot the last few weeks. She’s understandably sad and shaken by the whole deal. I wish I could do more for her. But she lives out of state and there’s only so much I can do over the internet.
As the seasons are changing, so are many aspects of my life. Besides my best friend soon to be losing her mother, most of these changes are welcomed. I wish my best friend nothing but the best as she works through the grief of losing her mom.
Today was the first day I did any real exercise since I threw out my back six weeks ago. I can tell I have gotten real rusty and out of shape in the six weeks I spent mending my back. I walked for only ten minutes, enough to get the blood moving but that’s about all. I’m not sore from walking but I can tell I am out of practice. It is quite hot in my hometown as late July and August are always the hottest times of the year. I’m still not quite adjusted to the heat as I haven’t been outside much while my back was mending. And it was quite a cool and wet spring this year, so I was used to exercising indoors this spring.
I’m going to start lifting arm weights again. I’ll start that tonight. It has been kind of an odd tradition for me to lift arm weights and do stretching while watching Star Trek reruns. A friend of mine got me started on that last summer. I’m most of the way through Season 3 of Star Trek: Enterprise. But when my back was healing I didn’t lift any arm weights or do much for stretching. I’m sure I’m going to be just as rusty with the weights as I was the walking. I’ll have to use the light weights for a couple weeks until I’m back to normal.
I also starting tracking what I eat again. I got discouraged for the last few months and was lazy about tracking. I was especially lazy when I couldn’t exercise outdoors and then after I hurt my back. Before I hurt my back I had some unexplained foot pain that limited my walking for over two weeks. So I haven’t been able to exercise hardly at all since the weather warmed up. And I had to exercise indoors this spring because it was chilly and rainy almost every day.
When I was at my psych doctor last time, I had gained twenty pounds since the start of the year. That was one month ago. I’m sure I’ve gain some more as I was not exercising because of my back. But my back is good again. I can sleep in a regular bed again after weeks in a recliner. I get more sleep in a regular bed but I fall asleep faster in my recliner. I can’t figure that one out.
Because of my back pain and lack of activity I’ve been more depressed and irritable than usual. I’m sorry I don’t make a very good patient. But in the handful of times I’ve been in a hospital I make it a point to never get irritable with the nurses and doctors. I force myself to be on good behavior I suppose. When I’m healing on my own I can be more short tempered and depressed than usual. I got angry with two of my best friends over a week ago. I’m still embarrassed about that. One of these friends I got mad at I hadn’t ever had an argument with and we’ve been friends for fifteen years. Another was my best friend from high school and we have raised our voices to each other only a handful of times, mostly when I was in the grip of a mental breakdown. I’m embarrassed I let those things happen. I grew up in a family where we rarely yelled at each other and never had instances where we stopped talking to people. We may not talk to each other every day but we will drop everyone for one of our own in crisis. Even my extended family is like this to each other.
I’ve mended from my back issues, finally. It was one of the longest six week stretches I was ever part of. I’m beginning to exercise again. I’m starting to socialize again. I’m beginning to track what I eat again. I haven’t yet got my blinds fixed but that is coming. I might even get new carpet by summer’s end. After months when almost nothing seemed to go right I think I’m starting to turn the corner. Maybe things will start to get better.