Bricktown After Midnight Notes

At 12:14 a.m., Bricktown sounded like glass.

Not breaking glass. Living glass.

The soft clink of beer bottles on patio tables. The neon shimmer reflected across canal water. Elevator doors opening inside converted warehouse lofts. Wind rattling old windows that had once belonged to cotton exchanges and machine shops and feed companies long dead.

Cal Mercer wrote all of it down.

He sat alone beneath the red glow of a flickering sign outside an all-night diner on Sheridan Avenue, notebook open, coffee cooling beside him. The waitress had stopped asking if he wanted a refill two hours ago. She knew the type.

Night people.

People who weren’t waiting for someone.

People listening for something.

Cal was thirty-eight and technically employed by nobody. Three years earlier he’d worked as a features reporter for a shrinking newspaper in Oklahoma City until the paper collapsed into digital fragments and syndicated wire copy. Since then he’d drifted into freelancing, then drifting in general.

But every night—especially in Bricktown—he wrote notes.

Not articles.

Not stories.

Notes.

Observations.

Fragments.

He filled legal pads with things nobody else noticed.

12:14 a.m. — bachelor party from Wichita loses one groomsman near Mickey Mantle statue. Remaining group unconcerned.

12:31 a.m. — woman in silver heels crying while eating street tacos beside canal. Not drunk. Angry.

12:47 a.m. — train horn west of downtown. Three people stop talking mid-sentence to listen.

That last one mattered.

Because trains still owned the city after midnight.

Even now.

Especially now.


Bricktown changed personalities depending on the hour.

At noon it belonged to tourists and office workers.

At seven it belonged to ballgames and dinner reservations.

At midnight it belonged to motion.

Bartenders cleaning taps. Security guards outside music venues. Rideshare drivers circling like patient sharks. Hotel clerks. Insomniacs. Kitchen workers smoking beside dumpsters. Amateur musicians loading amps into vans.

And the trains.

Always the trains.

Freight lines slid through the edges of downtown like enormous invisible animals. Their sounds bounced between brick buildings and old warehouses, folding into the city’s heartbeat.

Cal had become obsessed with them.

Not the machinery itself.

The timing.

The rhythm.

The way Bricktown seemed to reorganize around distant movement.

He started mapping train horns in his notebooks.

One long blast near the river changed pedestrian flow three blocks east.

A stopped freight near Reno Avenue delayed traffic enough to empty two bars earlier than usual.

Tiny disruptions. Cascading consequences.

The city was a system.

Most people just never stayed awake long enough to see it operating.


At 1:08 a.m., Cal wandered toward the canal.

The water reflected blue neon from a piano bar and green light from a pharmacy sign farther down the street. Ducks drifted through artificial currents beneath low pedestrian bridges while drunk college kids shouted across the water.

A canal boat slid past carrying six tourists and a guide who sounded exhausted.

“On your left,” the guide said mechanically, “you’ll see one of the original warehouse buildings from the early twentieth century…”

Nobody listened.

Cal wrote anyway.

Tour guides become ghosts after midnight. Continue speaking even when nobody hears them.

That one felt important.

He circled it twice.


Near the old brick warehouses by the railroad tracks, he found the saxophone player again.

The man appeared almost every Friday night around 1:30 a.m., always wearing the same gray suit regardless of weather. He played beneath a burned-out streetlamp facing the rail yard.

Never for money.

Never for crowds.

Tonight the song sounded slow and fractured, notes dissolving into the warm Oklahoma air.

Cal leaned against a wall and listened.

The sax player stopped mid-song without looking up.

“You’re writing about me again,” he said.

Cal blinked.

“I’m not writing about you specifically.”

“Sure.”

The man adjusted the reed.

“You’re writing about people who don’t go home.”

A freight train groaned somewhere west of downtown.

Cal considered denying it.

Instead, he said, “Maybe.”

The sax player nodded like that confirmed something.

“You know what Bricktown really is after midnight?”

“What?”

“A waiting room.”

Cal wrote that down immediately.

The musician laughed softly.

“See? That’s exactly what I mean.”


At 1:52 a.m., rain started.

Not heavy rain. Oklahoma summer rain. Warm and sudden and reflective.

Brick streets gleamed black beneath neon signs.

Couples sprinted beneath awnings laughing.

Bouncers stepped backward into doorways.

The canal rippled with shattered colors.

Cal loved Bricktown in rain because the city looked unfinished.

Like memory.

Like a place halfway between decades.

He walked east toward the railroad overpass where murals peeled from damp concrete walls. Water dripped through cracks overhead.

That was where he found the notebook.

It sat on a bench beside the canal.

Black cover.

No name.

No phone number.

Just a rubber band wrapped around the middle.

Cal looked around.

Nobody nearby.

He picked it up.

For a moment he considered leaving it alone.

Then he opened it.

Inside were notes.

Hundreds of them.

Not unlike his own.

But stranger.


11:41 p.m. — bartender at whiskey bar wipes same glass for seven minutes while staring at television with no sound.

12:03 a.m. — man in Thunder jersey says he moved back to Oklahoma because “Dallas forgot him.”

12:26 a.m. — every couple crossing the canal bridge walks slightly out of step.

1:11 a.m. — freight trains create temporary loneliness in surrounding streets.

Cal stopped walking.

The handwriting was compact and deliberate.

Observational.

Precise.

And deeply familiar.

He turned pages faster.

The notebook mapped Bricktown like a psychological weather report.

Patterns of movement.

Emotional currents.

Behavior loops.

One page simply read:

People reveal themselves most honestly between 12:30 and 2:00 a.m. because exhaustion disables performance.

Another:

Cities have subconscious minds. Bricktown’s appears nostalgic but restless.

Cal stared at the canal water.

Someone else had been studying the city the same way he had.

Maybe for years.


At 2:17 a.m., he entered a nearly empty bar called The Lantern Room two blocks off the canal.

It wasn’t popular enough for tourists.

Which made it valuable.

Three people occupied the entire place: a bartender polishing bottles, a woman asleep in a booth, and an older man eating fries while reading horse racing statistics.

Cal ordered coffee.

The bartender eyed the notebook.

“You find it?”

Cal froze.

“You know whose this is?”

The bartender shrugged.

“Guy leaves it around sometimes.”

“What guy?”

“Tall. Thin. Looks tired even when he isn’t.”

“That describes half of downtown.”

“True.”

The bartender poured coffee.

“He comes in around closing. Writes stuff. Never drinks much.”

Cal opened the notebook again.

“Do you know his name?”

“Nope.”

“Have you talked to him?”

“Not really. But he asked weird questions.”

“What kind of questions?”

The bartender thought for a second.

“Stuff like whether bars can sense when they’re dying.”

Cal stopped writing.

“That’s not weird,” he said quietly.

The bartender gave him a long look.

“Then there are apparently two of you.”


The rain intensified around 2:40 a.m.

Outside the windows, Bricktown blurred into watercolor reflections and smeared headlights.

The sleeping woman in the booth woke suddenly, looked confused for several seconds, then left without speaking.

The old man finished his fries and disappeared into the rain.

Cal remained.

Reading.

The notebook’s entries grew stranger deeper in.

Less observational.

More philosophical.


Bricktown survives by reinventing loneliness as entertainment.

Most cities sleep. Entertainment districts pretend not to.

Every bartender in America becomes a temporary therapist after midnight.

The canal is artificial but the loneliness around it is real.


Then, near the back, a sentence underlined three times:

There are nights when the city notices you observing it.

Cal felt cold despite the heat.

He checked the cover again for a name.

Nothing.

Only initials pressed faintly into the inside leather.

R.K.


At 3:06 a.m., the bartender locked the front door.

“Closing time.”

Cal nodded distractedly.

“You keeping that notebook?”

“I guess until I find the owner.”

The bartender smirked.

“Maybe he found you instead.”


Outside, Bricktown had thinned into fragments.

Street sweepers hummed along curbs.

Security guards leaned against alley walls smoking cigarettes.

The loud crowds were gone now, replaced by isolated voices echoing between buildings.

This was Cal’s favorite hour.

The hour after performance.

The city without makeup.

He walked beneath the railroad bridge near Reno Avenue while rainwater dripped from rusted steel beams overhead.

A train moved somewhere nearby.

Slow.

Heavy.

Invisible behind warehouses.

The sound rolled through the streets like distant thunder.

Cal opened the notebook again while standing beneath the bridge.

A loose page slipped free.

Typed, not handwritten.

A list of locations.

Dates.

Times.

Bricktown landmarks.

Canal.

Hotels.

Parking garages.

Train crossings.

Each entry paired with precise observations about crowd movement and behavioral patterns.

It looked less like journaling and more like surveillance.

Or research.

At the bottom was a final note:

Patterns become predictable after enough observation. Prediction becomes influence.

Cal stared at the page while rain tapped concrete around him.

Something about the wording unsettled him.

Not because it sounded dangerous.

Because it sounded true.


At 3:29 a.m., he saw the man.

Standing near the railroad crossing.

Tall.

Thin.

Dark jacket soaked by rain.

Watching freight cars pass slowly through downtown.

Cal approached carefully.

“You dropped this,” he called out, holding the notebook up.

The man turned.

Late forties maybe.

Sharp features.

Exhausted eyes.

He didn’t seem surprised.

“Did I?”

Cal stopped several feet away.

“It has your initials.”

The man smiled faintly.

“Does it?”

“You’re R.K.?”

The train thundered between them for a moment, steel shrieking against steel.

When it passed, the man said, “What did you think of the notes?”

Cal hesitated.

“They felt familiar.”

“That’s unfortunate.”

“Why?”

“Because it means you’ve stayed awake too long.”

Rain hissed against the tracks.

Downtown glowed behind them.

Cal studied him carefully.

“Who are you?”

“Observer,” the man said.

“That’s not an answer.”

“It’s the only accurate one.”


They walked together beneath the overpass while freight cars rolled endlessly beside them.

The man never gave a name.

But he talked.

About Bricktown.

About cities.

About systems.

“The interesting thing about entertainment districts,” he said, “is that they expose emotional logistics.”

Cal frowned.

“Emotional logistics?”

“Movement patterns based on loneliness, hope, boredom, alcohol, memory.”

“That sounds made up.”

“Everything sounds made up until it repeats.”

The man gestured toward downtown.

“Watch long enough and every city becomes predictable.”

They stopped beside the canal where rainwater rippled neon reflections into abstract colors.

“You ever notice,” the man asked, “how people slow down crossing bridges at night?”

Cal nodded slowly.

“I wrote that once.”

“I know.”

Cal looked at him sharply.

“What?”

The man smiled.

“You’re not the first person to study this place.”

A canal boat drifted silently beneath a bridge, empty except for the operator.

The city felt suspended.

Half real.

Half reflection.


“Why leave the notebook?” Cal asked.

“Because eventually observers need successors.”

“That sounds dramatic.”

“It’s midnight. Everything sounds dramatic after midnight.”

Cal laughed despite himself.

The man continued walking.

“You know why Bricktown matters?”

“Tourism?”

“Memory.”

The answer came instantly.

“This district keeps rebuilding itself into whatever the city needs emotionally. Warehouse district. Abandoned zone. Entertainment hub. Baseball neighborhood. Luxury apartment corridor.”

He glanced toward the old brick buildings.

“Cities survive by rewriting identity faster than residents can mourn older versions.”

Cal wrote the sentence down automatically.

The man noticed.

“There it is again.”

“What?”

“You don’t experience moments anymore. You archive them.”

That landed harder than Cal expected.

Because it was true.


At 4:02 a.m., they entered a parking garage overlooking downtown.

The rain had finally slowed.

From the top level, Bricktown stretched beneath them in wet streets and fading lights.

The Ferris wheel near the river glowed pale against low clouds.

Train tracks cut dark lines through the city.

Sirens echoed somewhere far away.

The man leaned against the concrete railing.

“Most people think cities are buildings,” he said.

“They’re schedules.”

Cal stayed quiet.

“Delivery routes. Shift changes. Traffic timing. Last calls. Freight schedules. Cleaning crews. Morning prep workers.”

He pointed toward downtown.

“Midnight is where all those systems overlap.”

Below them, a bakery truck turned onto Sheridan.

Lights flickered on inside a coffee shop preparing for dawn customers.

“You can feel the handoff happen,” the man said softly.

“The city changing shifts.”

Cal suddenly understood why the notebook felt familiar.

Not because the observations matched his.

Because the perspective did.

The obsession with invisible systems.

The hidden machinery beneath ordinary life.


“Who were you before this?” Cal asked.

The man laughed quietly.

“Before what?”

“Before wandering Bricktown at four in the morning writing philosophy notes.”

“Consultant.”

“For what?”

“Logistics.”

Of course.

Cal almost smiled.

The man continued.

“I used to optimize supply chains. Regional freight movement. Distribution timing.”

“What happened?”

“I realized cities behave exactly like transportation networks.”

Lightning flickered far west beyond the skyline.

“Everything moves,” the man said. “Goods. People. Emotions. Regret. Hope. Same principles.”

He looked directly at Cal.

“You’ve noticed it too.”

Cal didn’t answer.

Because yes.

He had.

For years.


At 4:31 a.m., dawn began leaking slowly into the eastern sky.

Not sunrise yet.

Just the soft graying that makes neon signs look suddenly exhausted.

Bricktown after midnight was ending.

The spell breaking.

Workers would arrive soon.

Coffee shops would fill.

Joggers would reclaim sidewalks from drunks and insomniacs.

The man picked up the notebook from Cal’s hands.

Then paused.

“No,” he said finally, handing it back.

“You keep it.”

Cal blinked.

“Why?”

“Because you’re still paying attention.”

Before Cal could respond, the man started down the parking garage stairs.

“Wait,” Cal called after him.

“What’s your name?”

The man stopped halfway down.

For a second, Cal thought he might answer.

Instead he said:

“Watch the trains.”

Then he disappeared.


At 5:02 a.m., Cal sat alone beside the canal again.

Morning workers moved through the district carrying coffee and keys and backpacks.

Street cleaners sprayed sidewalks.

The city was rebooting itself.

He opened the notebook.

On the final page, in handwriting shakier than the rest, was one last entry.

Bricktown after midnight is not about nightlife.

It is about transition.

People becoming different versions of themselves between darkness and morning.

Below that:

The ones who notice this never entirely return to daytime.

Cal closed the notebook slowly.

A freight horn echoed somewhere beyond downtown.

Long.

Low.

Ancient.

For the first time in months, maybe years, Cal stopped writing.

He just listened.

The sound rolled across Bricktown’s wet streets and fading neon and silent canal water, threading through old warehouses and empty patios and awakening kitchens.

Movement.

Systems.

Invisible connections.

The city breathing between shifts.

And as dawn finally arrived over Oklahoma City, Cal realized something that felt both comforting and dangerous:

Bricktown had been taking notes too.

Anticipating the 2026 World Cup: Sports and Community in Oklahoma

Starting to feel like summer here in Oklahoma City. Hot weather and most of the schools will be out for summer break by the end of the week. And the Thunder have gone deep into the NBA playoffs again. Lost a heart breaker in overtime here in OKC last night. Don’t have any time to lick our wounds as we got to play again in a couple days.

Mentally I haven’t felt this stable for this long since before I was diagnosed with schizophrenia way back in the year 2000. Been almost 26 years with a diagnosis. I don’t know if the symptoms have gotten less severe with age or if I am better with working around them at age 45 than I was even at 35. Either way I haven’t felt this good or hopeful since I was a kid. Not the norm for most people, let alone the mentally ill.

As far as psych medication is concerned, I’m taking only two psych meds per day. And one of those I need only half of the dose I was taking twelve months ago. I’m not on anything for anxiety. And I’ve been on the same two medications long enough that both are now in generic versions. Since the US doesn’t have Universal Healthcare, that means my meds are quite a bit cheaper now than they would have been even a couple of years ago but still quite pricey compared to most of the developed world.

Will the US ever have Universal Healthcare? I would say probably not until mass unemployment due to AI and Robotic Laborers became prominent and a significant percentage of the labor pool is left unemployed. Many people in my country are paranoid of governments enough that they simply don’t trust the federal or state government with handling healthcare. Many of my countrymen feel it sounds too much like government overreach. I do still think that the future can be really cool and prosperous. It has been brutal and probably will continue to be brutal to manage and navigate the transitions.

Many people here in the US have never really trusted government or any authority figures for that matter. Makes for a low trust society without much for social support outside of traditional places like family, community, and houses of worship for those who fall on hard times. And, of course, all three (family, community, and religious institutions) have weaker influence now than in previous eras in most places, not just in the US.

The US, along with Mexico and Canada, is playing host to the World Cup tournament starting in mid-June. Even though I don’t have a favorite professional team, I am excited to see the US host a good portion of the World Cup. Football (as the 96 percent of people who don’t live in the US understand it) isn’t as popular in the US as it is in most places. I’m not even sure what country is favored to win it this year.

Argentia won it in 2022, and France won it in 2018. That I remember and have written about in old blog entries. I know that Dallas, Houston, and Kansas City are hosting the matches that are within driving distance of Oklahoma. I’m interested in the cultural type activities that take place in host cities during the tournament.

It is difficult that many of my countrymen have become distrusting of foreigners and immigrants in recent years. Many forget that at one time their ancestors were the immigrants. I doubt my German ancestors knew much English when they first arrived. At one time people were accusing the Irish of taking most of the entry level jobs. I guess some things, other than the names and locations, never change.

I’m going to watch as many World Cup games as I can find even if the US doesn’t do well. I’m thinking about seeing in Amazon Prime has a setup where I can get all of the games the tv networks don’t cover. I had heard that negotiations for tv contracts were going rough with some countries, particularly China. I hope they get that settled before the games start. I don’t think many of my countrymen don’t realize just how big the World Cup really is. I guess that we are too isolated here in the US on many things.

I’m excited for the summer of 2026.I have finally adapted to hotter summers and less cold in winter. I’m enjoying Thunder basketball making another run for NBA champions and especially the World Cup tournament. It will be an eventful summer.

Short Story: Friday Night Archive

The tapes smelled like mildew, cigarette smoke, and basement dust.

Darren Vrbka stacked them carefully on the folding table inside the old volunteer fire hall in Broken Bow, Nebraska. Gray plastic VHS cases. Handwritten labels in fading Sharpie:

MULLEN 1998
MERNA VS ANSLEY
STATE SEMIS 2001
ELK CREEK HOMECOMING

Every tape carried a little bit of somebody’s youth inside it.

Outside, late November wind rattled the loose metal siding of the building. Pickup trucks sat angled beneath yellow streetlights. The whole town had gone quiet after seven o’clock, the way small Nebraska towns always did once football season ended and winter started settling into the roads.

Inside, five men in their early forties stood around old card tables drinking gas station coffee and pretending they weren’t emotional.

“You still got the same haircut,” Cody Fischer said, pointing at the paused TV screen.

Darren looked up.

The image showed seventeen-year-old Darren standing on a sideline in shoulder pads that looked too large for his body, blond hair sticking out beneath his helmet.

“Hell,” Darren muttered. “That was before life hit me with a shovel.”

The others laughed.

Not loudly.

Middle-aged men rarely laughed loudly anymore.


They had all played 8-man football together in the late 1990s and early 2000s, back when western Nebraska towns still had enough kids to field teams and enough optimism to believe their sons might leave and come back successful someday.

Most never did.

Or they came back damaged.

Or divorced.

Or tired.


Darren repaired irrigation systems now.

Cody sold crop insurance.

Luis Ortega managed a feed store outside Kearney.

Benji Rother worked nights driving a gravel truck.

And Shane McCall—once the fastest quarterback in Custer County—walked with a limp from a construction accident that had ended his career before anything had really started.

Tonight was supposed to be simple.

Nostalgia.

Digitize the old tapes before they degraded completely.

A local history project.

That’s what Darren’s daughter called it when she mailed him the video conversion equipment from Omaha.

“Preserve your memories, Dad.”

Like memories needed preserving.

Like they weren’t already carved into these men permanently.


The first tape rolled grainy and distorted across the screen.

A cloudy Friday night in October 1999.

Tiny wooden bleachers.

Pickup trucks lined behind the field.

Teenage boys wearing oversized pads under weak stadium lights.

The footage shook constantly because somebody’s dad had filmed it while yelling at referees.

“Look at us,” Luis said quietly.

Nobody answered.

Because there they were.

Young again.

Fast again.

Alive in a way middle age never quite allowed.


“You remember that game?” Cody asked.

“Against Stapleton?”

“Yeah.”

Darren nodded slowly.

“Cold as hell.”

“Your nose got busted.”

“Still crooked.”

They watched themselves move across the screen.

The old option offense.

Dust kicking up beneath cleats.

The rhythm of small-town football before social media, before smartphones, before every mistake lived forever online.

Back then mistakes disappeared into cold air.


Benji fed another tape into the converter.

“State quarterfinals,” he announced dramatically.

“Watch Shane overthrow every damn receiver on earth.”

“Still won,” Shane muttered.

The tape crackled alive.

Crowd noise.

Helmet pops.

The low hum of Friday night electricity.

Then the game began.


At first everything seemed normal.

Exactly how they remembered it.

Shane scrambling left.

Cody catching a slant route.

Luis intercepting a pass near midfield.

Then Darren frowned.

“Wait.”

The room went quiet.

He pointed at the screen.

“Back it up.”

Benji rewound.

Static lines flickered.

The play replayed.

Third quarter. Two minutes left.

Shane dropped back to pass.

A defender blitzed untouched.

Shane spun away.

Then—

The footage distorted briefly.

Like tracking interference.

And for half a second another figure appeared near the sideline.

A player wearing an all-black uniform.

No number.

No logo.

Just black.

Standing perfectly still.

Watching the field.


“What the hell is that?” Cody asked.

Nobody answered.

Benji paused the tape.

The figure blurred in static.

Impossible to make out clearly.

Shane laughed nervously.

“Probably tape damage.”

But nobody really believed that.

Because the figure hadn’t distorted like the rest of the frame.

It looked…inserted.

Intentional.


“Run it again,” Darren said.

Benji did.

The figure remained.

Watching.

Motionless.

Then gone.


Luis folded his arms.

“That wasn’t there before.”

“You sure?”

“I watched this tape twenty times after we lost State.”

Darren looked at Shane.

“You remember anybody dressed like that?”

Shane shook his head immediately.

“No.”

But he didn’t sound certain.


Outside, wind scraped dead leaves across the parking lot.

Inside, the old fire hall suddenly felt colder.


They kept watching.

At first they tried joking again.

Normal conversation.

Talking about old coaches and girlfriends and who drank too much after graduation.

But something had shifted.

Everyone kept staring at the corners of the screen now.

Looking for movement.


Then another moment appeared.

Different game.

Mullen versus Ansley.

Fourth quarter.

Darren caught a screen pass near midfield.

The crowd roared.

The cameraman swung wildly trying to follow the play.

And there—

Again.

The black-uniformed figure.

Closer this time.

Standing near the far sideline.

Still motionless.


“What the hell,” Benji whispered.

Shane leaned closer to the television.

“Pause it.”

The frame froze.

The figure’s face remained hidden beneath shadow despite the stadium lights.

But now they could see something else.

It wasn’t wearing pads.

The shoulders were too narrow.

The proportions wrong.

Almost human.

But not quite.


Cody forced a laugh.

“Maybe some goth kid wandered onto the field.”

Nobody laughed back.


Darren stood up and walked toward the coffee pot.

His knees hurt now when he stood too quickly.

That annoyed him more than it should.

He poured stale coffee into a paper cup while trying not to think about the figure.

“You know what’s weird?” Luis said behind him.

Darren turned.

Luis pointed at the screen.

“That play never happened.”

Silence.

“What?” Shane asked.

Luis shook his head slowly.

“I’m serious. Darren never caught that pass.”

“Yes I did.”

“No,” Luis insisted. “You fumbled on second down before halftime. I remember because Coach Reynolds lost his mind.”

Darren frowned.

At first he wanted to argue.

Then something uncomfortable settled into his stomach.

Because…

Maybe Luis was right.


They rewound again.

Watched carefully.

The play existed clearly on tape.

Darren caught the ball.

Ran twenty yards.

First down.

Crowd cheering.

Completely real.

And yet none of them remembered it happening.

Not even Darren.


Benji looked pale now.

“That’s not possible.”

“No,” Shane muttered quietly. “It isn’t.”


The next tape was worse.


Homecoming game.

Rainy night.

The footage blurred constantly with streaks of water across the lens.

Halfway through the second quarter, the camera drifted toward the stands.

Parents under umbrellas.

Teenagers flirting beneath blankets.

Old men drinking coffee in insulated thermoses.

Then the black figure appeared again.

This time sitting alone in the top row.

Watching the game.

Watching them.


The tape emitted a sharp burst of static.

The screen warped violently.

Then another image appeared for less than a second.

Not football.

A road at night.

Headlights.

Rain.

And something overturned in a ditch.


The image vanished.

Back to the game immediately.


Nobody spoke.

The old heater rattled loudly in the corner.


Shane finally broke the silence.

“Do you guys remember Travis Lind?”

Darren looked up sharply.

Of course they remembered Travis.

Everybody did.


Travis had been their running back in sophomore year.

Fastest kid in town.

Funny as hell.

Died in a car accident after a playoff game in 2000.

Truck slid off Highway 2 during freezing rain.

Killed instantly.


“We’re not doing this,” Cody said immediately.

But Shane kept staring at the screen.

“That road,” he said softly. “That looked like where Travis wrecked.”

Nobody answered.

Because they all thought the same thing.


Darren rubbed his face hard.

“Okay. Enough creepy crap. Tape glitches happen.”

“Do they?” Luis asked quietly.

Darren looked at him.

Luis pointed toward the paused image.

“Because I don’t remember that guy at all.”


Neither did anybody else.

And in small-town Nebraska football, everybody remembered everybody.

Especially strangers.


Benji loaded another tape.

His hands shook slightly now.

“You know what’s really bothering me?” he asked.

“What?”

“The figure keeps getting closer.”


Nobody wanted to admit he was right.

But he was.


Early tapes showed the figure distant.

Near fences.

Top rows of bleachers.

Far sideline.

But as years passed, it moved closer to the field.

Closer to them.


The next tape confirmed it.

State semifinals.

Biggest game most of them had ever played.

Snow flurries under stadium lights.

The figure stood directly behind their bench.

Clearly visible now.

Tall.

Thin.

Black clothing that absorbed light strangely.

Watching the players.

Watching Shane specifically.


Shane swore quietly.

“What?”

“There,” he said.

He pointed toward the screen.

“Right before halftime.”

Benji rewound.

Played slowly.

The camera followed Shane jogging off the field.

For half a second, Shane turned his head toward the figure.

And nodded.


The room went silent.


“I never did that,” Shane whispered.

But even he didn’t sound convinced anymore.


Darren suddenly remembered something.

Not fully.

Just fragments.

A locker room.

Wet concrete floors.

Coach yelling.

And Shane sitting alone before one game talking quietly to someone.

Someone Darren couldn’t see clearly.


“You okay?” Cody asked.

Darren looked up.

“No.”


Outside, snow had started falling lightly across Broken Bow.

Inside the fire hall, the television glow painted everyone pale blue.

Middle-aged men staring into the graveyard of their own memories.


Luis stood slowly.

“I’m gonna smoke.”

“You quit ten years ago.”

“Not tonight.”

He stepped outside.

Cold wind rushed briefly into the room before the door shut.


Shane kept staring at the paused image of himself nodding toward the black figure.

Finally he spoke.

“There’s something I never told you guys.”

Nobody moved.


“My senior year…” Shane swallowed hard. “I started seeing somebody at games.”

Darren’s chest tightened.

“What do you mean seeing somebody?”

“I thought it was stress or exhaustion or whatever. But there’d always be this guy standing near the field.”

“The black uniform?”

Shane nodded slowly.

“I could never see his face.”

Benji whispered, “Jesus Christ.”


“I never said anything because it sounded insane,” Shane continued. “But every time I saw him, we’d win.”

The heater clicked loudly.

Outside wind rattled the walls.


Cody shook his head immediately.

“No. Nope. We’re not turning this into some ghost story.”

“I’m serious.”

“You probably imagined it.”

“Maybe.”

But Shane still sounded uncertain.


Darren sat back down slowly.

Because now pieces were returning.

Not full memories.

Sensations.

Unease before kickoff.

The feeling of being watched during games.

Certain plays feeling strangely predetermined.


Luis returned smelling like cigarette smoke and winter air.

“You’re all white as hell,” he said.

Nobody answered.


Benji pressed play again.

The game resumed.

Snow falling harder.

Crowd roaring.

Then the footage skipped.

Static exploded across the screen.

The image rolled violently.

And suddenly—

The camera angle changed.

No longer filming the field.

Now filming the players directly from behind the bench.

As if another person held the camera.


“What the hell?” Darren whispered.

The footage moved slowly between players.

Past coaches.

Past helmets.

Then stopped on Shane.

The black figure stood beside him.

Not threatening.

Not aggressive.

Just present.


And then Shane spoke.

Not to teammates.

Not to coaches.

To the figure.


The audio crackled badly.

But they heard enough.

Shane saying:

“Not tonight.”

The figure tilted its head slightly.

Then static consumed the frame.


The tape ended.

Blue screen.

Silence.


Nobody moved for nearly a full minute.

Finally Cody spoke.

“That’s fake.”

But his voice shook.


“It can’t be fake,” Benji replied. “These tapes sat in Darren’s basement for twenty years.”

Darren stared blankly at the television.

Because another memory had surfaced now.

The state semifinal game.

Halftime.

Shane disappearing briefly from the locker room.

Returning pale and distant.

At the time Darren assumed he’d been throwing up from nerves.

Now he wasn’t sure.


Shane leaned forward.

“I think…” He stopped.

“What?”

“I think there were games I don’t fully remember.”

Nobody answered.

Because they all suddenly understood the same thing.

There were gaps.

Tiny missing pieces scattered through all their memories of those years.

Things they’d never questioned before.


Luis rubbed his jaw slowly.

“You think maybe we got hit too hard too many times?”

“Concussions?”

“Maybe.”

But nobody believed that either.

Not fully.


Benji looked toward the stack of remaining tapes.

“There’s still more.”

Nobody wanted to continue.

Nobody wanted to stop.


So they kept watching.


And as midnight settled deeper over western Nebraska, the old tapes revealed more impossible moments.

Extra players appearing in huddles.

Voices on audio tracks no one recognized.

Sideline conversations nobody remembered having.

And always the figure.

Watching.

Waiting.

Drawing closer year by year.


Until the final tape.

Their last season together.

The final game most of them ever played.


The footage began normally.

Cold night.

Small crowd.

End of an era none of them realized was ending at the time.


Then midway through the third quarter, the cameraman zoomed accidentally toward the far sideline.

And for the first time, the figure’s face became visible.


Darren felt his stomach drop.

Because it wasn’t a stranger.

Not exactly.

The face looked wrong somehow.

Blurry.

Unfinished.

Like several faces layered together.

But they recognized pieces.

A little of Travis Lind.

A little of Shane.

A little of Darren himself.

Fragments of all of them combined into something incomplete.


Luis whispered a prayer under his breath.


Then the figure looked directly into the camera.

And smiled.


The tape stopped.

Not ended.

Stopped.

The VCR clicked loudly.

Blue screen returned.


Nobody spoke.

Snow fell softly outside.

The heater rattled.

Somewhere far down Main Street, a train horn echoed through the dark Nebraska night.


Finally Darren stood.

Slowly.

His knees cracking.

His shoulders stiff with age and fear and memory.

“What do we do with these?”

Nobody answered immediately.


Then Shane said quietly:

“I think we remember.”


And somehow that felt more frightening than anything they’d seen on the tapes.

A Fresh Start: Overcoming Challenges and Building Connections

I’m doing well after eight months in my new home. First time since the pandemic that my living situation has stabilized. I’m now down to only one blood pressure medication per day. My water retention swelling is gone.

I’ve lost over 100 pounds in the last eight months. I’ve gotten much closer to my brother and his family since moving to Oklahoma in 2023. I probably would have moved a few years sooner if not for the pandemic.

Reading a lot of audiobooks again. I started on The Old Testament of the King James Bible around last Christmas. I’m halfway through. I’m listening to lots of history and economics books too. Recently finished one about the Oil Shortages of the 1970s. Currently working on post-Soviet Union Russia in the 1990s.

Been following sports a lot since last Christmas. Became an Oklahoma City Thunder fan when I moved to Oklahoma in 2023. It’s fun watching them making another deep push in the playoffs.

I became a Colorado Avalanche fan in 1995 after Denver got that team. Looks like they too could make a deep run in the Stanley Cup. The Rockies are not horrible this year in baseball.

Nebraska Husker men’s basketball had its best season ever this year making the third round of the NCAA tournament. And it’s looking like Nebraska football could potentially have a better team this autumn.

I have made lots of friends with the staff members here at my complex. I avoid most of the other residents. Some are too negative. Some are not with it enough to hold a real conversation. I do well here, in part, because I have no roommates. I love not having a roomie. My freshman year in college roommate was a character. After that I decided I would never voluntarily share a sleeping quarters with anyone again.

My arthritis is mostly gone after a few months of Tylenol twice a day. My goodness it was an ordeal convincing the doctor to get me on it the first four months I was here. It was like they couldn’t realize just how bad my arthritis was.

I see my family twice a month. My brother calls me once a week or so. I hear from my best friend from college usually once a week. We talk more often now that baseball season is going. We’re both huge Colorado Rockies fans. We went to one of their World Series games back in 2007. Took several months to pay off that weekend. But it was worth every last penny.

Even though I no longer actively invest, I still pay attention to the stock market and the world of investing. I see that SpaceX and Starlink will probably go public by the end of summer. I have the same feelings about those companies that I had about Facebook in 2009 and Nvidia back in 2021. Pity social security’s rules only allow a small amount in savings to still qualify for Medicaid. Such is I suppose.

I think one of the reasons I’m losing weight faster than expected is due to not eating fast food or sugar very often. Mom and Dad usually bring some Chic fil A when they come to visit a couple times a month. Ordered delivery pizza only a few times since I moved here in August 2025.

My two nephews are done with college for the summer. One is going to work for an engineering firm here in the metro. The other is looking for something in a hospital as he eventually wants to become a physician’s assistant.

My parents are enjoying the retired life. They see their grandkids often. They are quite active in their church. Dad usually has some DIY or hobby projects, like ham radio or model trains, going. Mom is busy with her gardening.

So far 2026 has been better than most years the last seven or eight years. It feels good that my living arrangements are finally settled.

Finding Joy in Oklahoma: A New Chapter in Life

Yesterday was Mother’s Day here in the US. Had a good, long chat with my mom. She’s enjoying retirement and getting to be grandma to my brother’s kids. I don’t talk to her as often as I used to, but our conversations are still good.

Here in Oklahoma, the Thunder are the talk of the entire state. I started following them after moving here in early 2023. It’s fun to have a strong team to follow again. Reminds me of following Nebraska Husker football when I was a teenager back in the 90s.

Lost 20 pounds since April 1. Been eating mostly protein lately, namely eggs and pork for breakfast. Even though a good portion of my freedom is gone, it’s good to have three hot meals a day, easy access to healthcare, and more stability than I have had at any point in my life.

I am now cured of sleep apnea and anemia. First time in several years I haven’t had either one. I am also down to only one blood pressure medication per day. I’m doing well enough mentally that I take only two psychiatric medications per night.

Most of my arthritis has cleared up. I still take Tylenol twice a day, but I think the weight loss has taken some of the stress off my joints. I still have backbone pain from a football injury in high school.

I have found that dealing with mental illness, at least for me, has gotten easier now that I don’t deal with the public anymore. Most of the people I deal with I know pretty well. Overall things are going much better than I could have imagined when I first moved to Oklahoma three years ago.

Been in My New Home for Eight Months. May 6th, 2026, Updates

It’s been a minute since I last wrote about my personal life. I lost 20 pounds in the last month after holding steady for over three months. I’ve lost 100 pounds in the last eight months. I’m now down 180 pounds since summer 2024. That was when my water retention was at its worst.

Lost enough weight that I no longer have sleep apnea. Haven’t used a CPAP machine for two months. My blood pressure has stabilized enough that I only take one blood pressure medication. The water retention problems are gone too.

I still deal with arthritis. Mainly in my knees but it doesn’t hurt nearly as bad as six months ago. Over the winter I had bad arthritis in both hands and both elbows. I have since gotten that taken care of. I still have a lot of pain in my tailbone from an old high school football injury that never completely healed.

Made a few friends in here. All of them are staff members. I’m especially close to this Hispanic lady who works the afternoons, a Philippine immigrant nurse who works afternoons, a chatty red head who works mostly weekends, and a grandmotherly like lady who works mornings.

Don’t have friends among the patients. Most patients are either mostly negative or have dementia. I just don’t want to be affected by that kind of negativity anymore. Spent too much of my life around irritable and rude people. I refuse to put up with it anymore.

Got glasses during the winter. I can read and see much better now. Don’t have much for physical books other than an old Bible, but I do have lots of audio files on youtube and amazon.

Been watching a lot of documentaries on YouTube. Mostly for economics, history, and geopolitics. Think I’m going to get back into science and futurism. I also listen to a lot of suspense voice over stories on YouTube. Some are actually pretty good at falling asleep to. And I often dream about the stories when I do sleep with the audio playing.