Bricktown After Midnight Notes

At 12:14 a.m., Bricktown sounded like glass.

Not breaking glass. Living glass.

The soft clink of beer bottles on patio tables. The neon shimmer reflected across canal water. Elevator doors opening inside converted warehouse lofts. Wind rattling old windows that had once belonged to cotton exchanges and machine shops and feed companies long dead.

Cal Mercer wrote all of it down.

He sat alone beneath the red glow of a flickering sign outside an all-night diner on Sheridan Avenue, notebook open, coffee cooling beside him. The waitress had stopped asking if he wanted a refill two hours ago. She knew the type.

Night people.

People who weren’t waiting for someone.

People listening for something.

Cal was thirty-eight and technically employed by nobody. Three years earlier he’d worked as a features reporter for a shrinking newspaper in Oklahoma City until the paper collapsed into digital fragments and syndicated wire copy. Since then he’d drifted into freelancing, then drifting in general.

But every night—especially in Bricktown—he wrote notes.

Not articles.

Not stories.

Notes.

Observations.

Fragments.

He filled legal pads with things nobody else noticed.

12:14 a.m. — bachelor party from Wichita loses one groomsman near Mickey Mantle statue. Remaining group unconcerned.

12:31 a.m. — woman in silver heels crying while eating street tacos beside canal. Not drunk. Angry.

12:47 a.m. — train horn west of downtown. Three people stop talking mid-sentence to listen.

That last one mattered.

Because trains still owned the city after midnight.

Even now.

Especially now.


Bricktown changed personalities depending on the hour.

At noon it belonged to tourists and office workers.

At seven it belonged to ballgames and dinner reservations.

At midnight it belonged to motion.

Bartenders cleaning taps. Security guards outside music venues. Rideshare drivers circling like patient sharks. Hotel clerks. Insomniacs. Kitchen workers smoking beside dumpsters. Amateur musicians loading amps into vans.

And the trains.

Always the trains.

Freight lines slid through the edges of downtown like enormous invisible animals. Their sounds bounced between brick buildings and old warehouses, folding into the city’s heartbeat.

Cal had become obsessed with them.

Not the machinery itself.

The timing.

The rhythm.

The way Bricktown seemed to reorganize around distant movement.

He started mapping train horns in his notebooks.

One long blast near the river changed pedestrian flow three blocks east.

A stopped freight near Reno Avenue delayed traffic enough to empty two bars earlier than usual.

Tiny disruptions. Cascading consequences.

The city was a system.

Most people just never stayed awake long enough to see it operating.


At 1:08 a.m., Cal wandered toward the canal.

The water reflected blue neon from a piano bar and green light from a pharmacy sign farther down the street. Ducks drifted through artificial currents beneath low pedestrian bridges while drunk college kids shouted across the water.

A canal boat slid past carrying six tourists and a guide who sounded exhausted.

“On your left,” the guide said mechanically, “you’ll see one of the original warehouse buildings from the early twentieth century…”

Nobody listened.

Cal wrote anyway.

Tour guides become ghosts after midnight. Continue speaking even when nobody hears them.

That one felt important.

He circled it twice.


Near the old brick warehouses by the railroad tracks, he found the saxophone player again.

The man appeared almost every Friday night around 1:30 a.m., always wearing the same gray suit regardless of weather. He played beneath a burned-out streetlamp facing the rail yard.

Never for money.

Never for crowds.

Tonight the song sounded slow and fractured, notes dissolving into the warm Oklahoma air.

Cal leaned against a wall and listened.

The sax player stopped mid-song without looking up.

“You’re writing about me again,” he said.

Cal blinked.

“I’m not writing about you specifically.”

“Sure.”

The man adjusted the reed.

“You’re writing about people who don’t go home.”

A freight train groaned somewhere west of downtown.

Cal considered denying it.

Instead, he said, “Maybe.”

The sax player nodded like that confirmed something.

“You know what Bricktown really is after midnight?”

“What?”

“A waiting room.”

Cal wrote that down immediately.

The musician laughed softly.

“See? That’s exactly what I mean.”


At 1:52 a.m., rain started.

Not heavy rain. Oklahoma summer rain. Warm and sudden and reflective.

Brick streets gleamed black beneath neon signs.

Couples sprinted beneath awnings laughing.

Bouncers stepped backward into doorways.

The canal rippled with shattered colors.

Cal loved Bricktown in rain because the city looked unfinished.

Like memory.

Like a place halfway between decades.

He walked east toward the railroad overpass where murals peeled from damp concrete walls. Water dripped through cracks overhead.

That was where he found the notebook.

It sat on a bench beside the canal.

Black cover.

No name.

No phone number.

Just a rubber band wrapped around the middle.

Cal looked around.

Nobody nearby.

He picked it up.

For a moment he considered leaving it alone.

Then he opened it.

Inside were notes.

Hundreds of them.

Not unlike his own.

But stranger.


11:41 p.m. — bartender at whiskey bar wipes same glass for seven minutes while staring at television with no sound.

12:03 a.m. — man in Thunder jersey says he moved back to Oklahoma because “Dallas forgot him.”

12:26 a.m. — every couple crossing the canal bridge walks slightly out of step.

1:11 a.m. — freight trains create temporary loneliness in surrounding streets.

Cal stopped walking.

The handwriting was compact and deliberate.

Observational.

Precise.

And deeply familiar.

He turned pages faster.

The notebook mapped Bricktown like a psychological weather report.

Patterns of movement.

Emotional currents.

Behavior loops.

One page simply read:

People reveal themselves most honestly between 12:30 and 2:00 a.m. because exhaustion disables performance.

Another:

Cities have subconscious minds. Bricktown’s appears nostalgic but restless.

Cal stared at the canal water.

Someone else had been studying the city the same way he had.

Maybe for years.


At 2:17 a.m., he entered a nearly empty bar called The Lantern Room two blocks off the canal.

It wasn’t popular enough for tourists.

Which made it valuable.

Three people occupied the entire place: a bartender polishing bottles, a woman asleep in a booth, and an older man eating fries while reading horse racing statistics.

Cal ordered coffee.

The bartender eyed the notebook.

“You find it?”

Cal froze.

“You know whose this is?”

The bartender shrugged.

“Guy leaves it around sometimes.”

“What guy?”

“Tall. Thin. Looks tired even when he isn’t.”

“That describes half of downtown.”

“True.”

The bartender poured coffee.

“He comes in around closing. Writes stuff. Never drinks much.”

Cal opened the notebook again.

“Do you know his name?”

“Nope.”

“Have you talked to him?”

“Not really. But he asked weird questions.”

“What kind of questions?”

The bartender thought for a second.

“Stuff like whether bars can sense when they’re dying.”

Cal stopped writing.

“That’s not weird,” he said quietly.

The bartender gave him a long look.

“Then there are apparently two of you.”


The rain intensified around 2:40 a.m.

Outside the windows, Bricktown blurred into watercolor reflections and smeared headlights.

The sleeping woman in the booth woke suddenly, looked confused for several seconds, then left without speaking.

The old man finished his fries and disappeared into the rain.

Cal remained.

Reading.

The notebook’s entries grew stranger deeper in.

Less observational.

More philosophical.


Bricktown survives by reinventing loneliness as entertainment.

Most cities sleep. Entertainment districts pretend not to.

Every bartender in America becomes a temporary therapist after midnight.

The canal is artificial but the loneliness around it is real.


Then, near the back, a sentence underlined three times:

There are nights when the city notices you observing it.

Cal felt cold despite the heat.

He checked the cover again for a name.

Nothing.

Only initials pressed faintly into the inside leather.

R.K.


At 3:06 a.m., the bartender locked the front door.

“Closing time.”

Cal nodded distractedly.

“You keeping that notebook?”

“I guess until I find the owner.”

The bartender smirked.

“Maybe he found you instead.”


Outside, Bricktown had thinned into fragments.

Street sweepers hummed along curbs.

Security guards leaned against alley walls smoking cigarettes.

The loud crowds were gone now, replaced by isolated voices echoing between buildings.

This was Cal’s favorite hour.

The hour after performance.

The city without makeup.

He walked beneath the railroad bridge near Reno Avenue while rainwater dripped from rusted steel beams overhead.

A train moved somewhere nearby.

Slow.

Heavy.

Invisible behind warehouses.

The sound rolled through the streets like distant thunder.

Cal opened the notebook again while standing beneath the bridge.

A loose page slipped free.

Typed, not handwritten.

A list of locations.

Dates.

Times.

Bricktown landmarks.

Canal.

Hotels.

Parking garages.

Train crossings.

Each entry paired with precise observations about crowd movement and behavioral patterns.

It looked less like journaling and more like surveillance.

Or research.

At the bottom was a final note:

Patterns become predictable after enough observation. Prediction becomes influence.

Cal stared at the page while rain tapped concrete around him.

Something about the wording unsettled him.

Not because it sounded dangerous.

Because it sounded true.


At 3:29 a.m., he saw the man.

Standing near the railroad crossing.

Tall.

Thin.

Dark jacket soaked by rain.

Watching freight cars pass slowly through downtown.

Cal approached carefully.

“You dropped this,” he called out, holding the notebook up.

The man turned.

Late forties maybe.

Sharp features.

Exhausted eyes.

He didn’t seem surprised.

“Did I?”

Cal stopped several feet away.

“It has your initials.”

The man smiled faintly.

“Does it?”

“You’re R.K.?”

The train thundered between them for a moment, steel shrieking against steel.

When it passed, the man said, “What did you think of the notes?”

Cal hesitated.

“They felt familiar.”

“That’s unfortunate.”

“Why?”

“Because it means you’ve stayed awake too long.”

Rain hissed against the tracks.

Downtown glowed behind them.

Cal studied him carefully.

“Who are you?”

“Observer,” the man said.

“That’s not an answer.”

“It’s the only accurate one.”


They walked together beneath the overpass while freight cars rolled endlessly beside them.

The man never gave a name.

But he talked.

About Bricktown.

About cities.

About systems.

“The interesting thing about entertainment districts,” he said, “is that they expose emotional logistics.”

Cal frowned.

“Emotional logistics?”

“Movement patterns based on loneliness, hope, boredom, alcohol, memory.”

“That sounds made up.”

“Everything sounds made up until it repeats.”

The man gestured toward downtown.

“Watch long enough and every city becomes predictable.”

They stopped beside the canal where rainwater rippled neon reflections into abstract colors.

“You ever notice,” the man asked, “how people slow down crossing bridges at night?”

Cal nodded slowly.

“I wrote that once.”

“I know.”

Cal looked at him sharply.

“What?”

The man smiled.

“You’re not the first person to study this place.”

A canal boat drifted silently beneath a bridge, empty except for the operator.

The city felt suspended.

Half real.

Half reflection.


“Why leave the notebook?” Cal asked.

“Because eventually observers need successors.”

“That sounds dramatic.”

“It’s midnight. Everything sounds dramatic after midnight.”

Cal laughed despite himself.

The man continued walking.

“You know why Bricktown matters?”

“Tourism?”

“Memory.”

The answer came instantly.

“This district keeps rebuilding itself into whatever the city needs emotionally. Warehouse district. Abandoned zone. Entertainment hub. Baseball neighborhood. Luxury apartment corridor.”

He glanced toward the old brick buildings.

“Cities survive by rewriting identity faster than residents can mourn older versions.”

Cal wrote the sentence down automatically.

The man noticed.

“There it is again.”

“What?”

“You don’t experience moments anymore. You archive them.”

That landed harder than Cal expected.

Because it was true.


At 4:02 a.m., they entered a parking garage overlooking downtown.

The rain had finally slowed.

From the top level, Bricktown stretched beneath them in wet streets and fading lights.

The Ferris wheel near the river glowed pale against low clouds.

Train tracks cut dark lines through the city.

Sirens echoed somewhere far away.

The man leaned against the concrete railing.

“Most people think cities are buildings,” he said.

“They’re schedules.”

Cal stayed quiet.

“Delivery routes. Shift changes. Traffic timing. Last calls. Freight schedules. Cleaning crews. Morning prep workers.”

He pointed toward downtown.

“Midnight is where all those systems overlap.”

Below them, a bakery truck turned onto Sheridan.

Lights flickered on inside a coffee shop preparing for dawn customers.

“You can feel the handoff happen,” the man said softly.

“The city changing shifts.”

Cal suddenly understood why the notebook felt familiar.

Not because the observations matched his.

Because the perspective did.

The obsession with invisible systems.

The hidden machinery beneath ordinary life.


“Who were you before this?” Cal asked.

The man laughed quietly.

“Before what?”

“Before wandering Bricktown at four in the morning writing philosophy notes.”

“Consultant.”

“For what?”

“Logistics.”

Of course.

Cal almost smiled.

The man continued.

“I used to optimize supply chains. Regional freight movement. Distribution timing.”

“What happened?”

“I realized cities behave exactly like transportation networks.”

Lightning flickered far west beyond the skyline.

“Everything moves,” the man said. “Goods. People. Emotions. Regret. Hope. Same principles.”

He looked directly at Cal.

“You’ve noticed it too.”

Cal didn’t answer.

Because yes.

He had.

For years.


At 4:31 a.m., dawn began leaking slowly into the eastern sky.

Not sunrise yet.

Just the soft graying that makes neon signs look suddenly exhausted.

Bricktown after midnight was ending.

The spell breaking.

Workers would arrive soon.

Coffee shops would fill.

Joggers would reclaim sidewalks from drunks and insomniacs.

The man picked up the notebook from Cal’s hands.

Then paused.

“No,” he said finally, handing it back.

“You keep it.”

Cal blinked.

“Why?”

“Because you’re still paying attention.”

Before Cal could respond, the man started down the parking garage stairs.

“Wait,” Cal called after him.

“What’s your name?”

The man stopped halfway down.

For a second, Cal thought he might answer.

Instead he said:

“Watch the trains.”

Then he disappeared.


At 5:02 a.m., Cal sat alone beside the canal again.

Morning workers moved through the district carrying coffee and keys and backpacks.

Street cleaners sprayed sidewalks.

The city was rebooting itself.

He opened the notebook.

On the final page, in handwriting shakier than the rest, was one last entry.

Bricktown after midnight is not about nightlife.

It is about transition.

People becoming different versions of themselves between darkness and morning.

Below that:

The ones who notice this never entirely return to daytime.

Cal closed the notebook slowly.

A freight horn echoed somewhere beyond downtown.

Long.

Low.

Ancient.

For the first time in months, maybe years, Cal stopped writing.

He just listened.

The sound rolled across Bricktown’s wet streets and fading neon and silent canal water, threading through old warehouses and empty patios and awakening kitchens.

Movement.

Systems.

Invisible connections.

The city breathing between shifts.

And as dawn finally arrived over Oklahoma City, Cal realized something that felt both comforting and dangerous:

Bricktown had been taking notes too.

Anticipating the 2026 World Cup: Sports and Community in Oklahoma

Starting to feel like summer here in Oklahoma City. Hot weather and most of the schools will be out for summer break by the end of the week. And the Thunder have gone deep into the NBA playoffs again. Lost a heart breaker in overtime here in OKC last night. Don’t have any time to lick our wounds as we got to play again in a couple days.

Mentally I haven’t felt this stable for this long since before I was diagnosed with schizophrenia way back in the year 2000. Been almost 26 years with a diagnosis. I don’t know if the symptoms have gotten less severe with age or if I am better with working around them at age 45 than I was even at 35. Either way I haven’t felt this good or hopeful since I was a kid. Not the norm for most people, let alone the mentally ill.

As far as psych medication is concerned, I’m taking only two psych meds per day. And one of those I need only half of the dose I was taking twelve months ago. I’m not on anything for anxiety. And I’ve been on the same two medications long enough that both are now in generic versions. Since the US doesn’t have Universal Healthcare, that means my meds are quite a bit cheaper now than they would have been even a couple of years ago but still quite pricey compared to most of the developed world.

Will the US ever have Universal Healthcare? I would say probably not until mass unemployment due to AI and Robotic Laborers became prominent and a significant percentage of the labor pool is left unemployed. Many people in my country are paranoid of governments enough that they simply don’t trust the federal or state government with handling healthcare. Many of my countrymen feel it sounds too much like government overreach. I do still think that the future can be really cool and prosperous. It has been brutal and probably will continue to be brutal to manage and navigate the transitions.

Many people here in the US have never really trusted government or any authority figures for that matter. Makes for a low trust society without much for social support outside of traditional places like family, community, and houses of worship for those who fall on hard times. And, of course, all three (family, community, and religious institutions) have weaker influence now than in previous eras in most places, not just in the US.

The US, along with Mexico and Canada, is playing host to the World Cup tournament starting in mid-June. Even though I don’t have a favorite professional team, I am excited to see the US host a good portion of the World Cup. Football (as the 96 percent of people who don’t live in the US understand it) isn’t as popular in the US as it is in most places. I’m not even sure what country is favored to win it this year.

Argentia won it in 2022, and France won it in 2018. That I remember and have written about in old blog entries. I know that Dallas, Houston, and Kansas City are hosting the matches that are within driving distance of Oklahoma. I’m interested in the cultural type activities that take place in host cities during the tournament.

It is difficult that many of my countrymen have become distrusting of foreigners and immigrants in recent years. Many forget that at one time their ancestors were the immigrants. I doubt my German ancestors knew much English when they first arrived. At one time people were accusing the Irish of taking most of the entry level jobs. I guess some things, other than the names and locations, never change.

I’m going to watch as many World Cup games as I can find even if the US doesn’t do well. I’m thinking about seeing in Amazon Prime has a setup where I can get all of the games the tv networks don’t cover. I had heard that negotiations for tv contracts were going rough with some countries, particularly China. I hope they get that settled before the games start. I don’t think many of my countrymen don’t realize just how big the World Cup really is. I guess that we are too isolated here in the US on many things.

I’m excited for the summer of 2026.I have finally adapted to hotter summers and less cold in winter. I’m enjoying Thunder basketball making another run for NBA champions and especially the World Cup tournament. It will be an eventful summer.

Short Story: Friday Night Archive

The tapes smelled like mildew, cigarette smoke, and basement dust.

Darren Vrbka stacked them carefully on the folding table inside the old volunteer fire hall in Broken Bow, Nebraska. Gray plastic VHS cases. Handwritten labels in fading Sharpie:

MULLEN 1998
MERNA VS ANSLEY
STATE SEMIS 2001
ELK CREEK HOMECOMING

Every tape carried a little bit of somebody’s youth inside it.

Outside, late November wind rattled the loose metal siding of the building. Pickup trucks sat angled beneath yellow streetlights. The whole town had gone quiet after seven o’clock, the way small Nebraska towns always did once football season ended and winter started settling into the roads.

Inside, five men in their early forties stood around old card tables drinking gas station coffee and pretending they weren’t emotional.

“You still got the same haircut,” Cody Fischer said, pointing at the paused TV screen.

Darren looked up.

The image showed seventeen-year-old Darren standing on a sideline in shoulder pads that looked too large for his body, blond hair sticking out beneath his helmet.

“Hell,” Darren muttered. “That was before life hit me with a shovel.”

The others laughed.

Not loudly.

Middle-aged men rarely laughed loudly anymore.


They had all played 8-man football together in the late 1990s and early 2000s, back when western Nebraska towns still had enough kids to field teams and enough optimism to believe their sons might leave and come back successful someday.

Most never did.

Or they came back damaged.

Or divorced.

Or tired.


Darren repaired irrigation systems now.

Cody sold crop insurance.

Luis Ortega managed a feed store outside Kearney.

Benji Rother worked nights driving a gravel truck.

And Shane McCall—once the fastest quarterback in Custer County—walked with a limp from a construction accident that had ended his career before anything had really started.

Tonight was supposed to be simple.

Nostalgia.

Digitize the old tapes before they degraded completely.

A local history project.

That’s what Darren’s daughter called it when she mailed him the video conversion equipment from Omaha.

“Preserve your memories, Dad.”

Like memories needed preserving.

Like they weren’t already carved into these men permanently.


The first tape rolled grainy and distorted across the screen.

A cloudy Friday night in October 1999.

Tiny wooden bleachers.

Pickup trucks lined behind the field.

Teenage boys wearing oversized pads under weak stadium lights.

The footage shook constantly because somebody’s dad had filmed it while yelling at referees.

“Look at us,” Luis said quietly.

Nobody answered.

Because there they were.

Young again.

Fast again.

Alive in a way middle age never quite allowed.


“You remember that game?” Cody asked.

“Against Stapleton?”

“Yeah.”

Darren nodded slowly.

“Cold as hell.”

“Your nose got busted.”

“Still crooked.”

They watched themselves move across the screen.

The old option offense.

Dust kicking up beneath cleats.

The rhythm of small-town football before social media, before smartphones, before every mistake lived forever online.

Back then mistakes disappeared into cold air.


Benji fed another tape into the converter.

“State quarterfinals,” he announced dramatically.

“Watch Shane overthrow every damn receiver on earth.”

“Still won,” Shane muttered.

The tape crackled alive.

Crowd noise.

Helmet pops.

The low hum of Friday night electricity.

Then the game began.


At first everything seemed normal.

Exactly how they remembered it.

Shane scrambling left.

Cody catching a slant route.

Luis intercepting a pass near midfield.

Then Darren frowned.

“Wait.”

The room went quiet.

He pointed at the screen.

“Back it up.”

Benji rewound.

Static lines flickered.

The play replayed.

Third quarter. Two minutes left.

Shane dropped back to pass.

A defender blitzed untouched.

Shane spun away.

Then—

The footage distorted briefly.

Like tracking interference.

And for half a second another figure appeared near the sideline.

A player wearing an all-black uniform.

No number.

No logo.

Just black.

Standing perfectly still.

Watching the field.


“What the hell is that?” Cody asked.

Nobody answered.

Benji paused the tape.

The figure blurred in static.

Impossible to make out clearly.

Shane laughed nervously.

“Probably tape damage.”

But nobody really believed that.

Because the figure hadn’t distorted like the rest of the frame.

It looked…inserted.

Intentional.


“Run it again,” Darren said.

Benji did.

The figure remained.

Watching.

Motionless.

Then gone.


Luis folded his arms.

“That wasn’t there before.”

“You sure?”

“I watched this tape twenty times after we lost State.”

Darren looked at Shane.

“You remember anybody dressed like that?”

Shane shook his head immediately.

“No.”

But he didn’t sound certain.


Outside, wind scraped dead leaves across the parking lot.

Inside, the old fire hall suddenly felt colder.


They kept watching.

At first they tried joking again.

Normal conversation.

Talking about old coaches and girlfriends and who drank too much after graduation.

But something had shifted.

Everyone kept staring at the corners of the screen now.

Looking for movement.


Then another moment appeared.

Different game.

Mullen versus Ansley.

Fourth quarter.

Darren caught a screen pass near midfield.

The crowd roared.

The cameraman swung wildly trying to follow the play.

And there—

Again.

The black-uniformed figure.

Closer this time.

Standing near the far sideline.

Still motionless.


“What the hell,” Benji whispered.

Shane leaned closer to the television.

“Pause it.”

The frame froze.

The figure’s face remained hidden beneath shadow despite the stadium lights.

But now they could see something else.

It wasn’t wearing pads.

The shoulders were too narrow.

The proportions wrong.

Almost human.

But not quite.


Cody forced a laugh.

“Maybe some goth kid wandered onto the field.”

Nobody laughed back.


Darren stood up and walked toward the coffee pot.

His knees hurt now when he stood too quickly.

That annoyed him more than it should.

He poured stale coffee into a paper cup while trying not to think about the figure.

“You know what’s weird?” Luis said behind him.

Darren turned.

Luis pointed at the screen.

“That play never happened.”

Silence.

“What?” Shane asked.

Luis shook his head slowly.

“I’m serious. Darren never caught that pass.”

“Yes I did.”

“No,” Luis insisted. “You fumbled on second down before halftime. I remember because Coach Reynolds lost his mind.”

Darren frowned.

At first he wanted to argue.

Then something uncomfortable settled into his stomach.

Because…

Maybe Luis was right.


They rewound again.

Watched carefully.

The play existed clearly on tape.

Darren caught the ball.

Ran twenty yards.

First down.

Crowd cheering.

Completely real.

And yet none of them remembered it happening.

Not even Darren.


Benji looked pale now.

“That’s not possible.”

“No,” Shane muttered quietly. “It isn’t.”


The next tape was worse.


Homecoming game.

Rainy night.

The footage blurred constantly with streaks of water across the lens.

Halfway through the second quarter, the camera drifted toward the stands.

Parents under umbrellas.

Teenagers flirting beneath blankets.

Old men drinking coffee in insulated thermoses.

Then the black figure appeared again.

This time sitting alone in the top row.

Watching the game.

Watching them.


The tape emitted a sharp burst of static.

The screen warped violently.

Then another image appeared for less than a second.

Not football.

A road at night.

Headlights.

Rain.

And something overturned in a ditch.


The image vanished.

Back to the game immediately.


Nobody spoke.

The old heater rattled loudly in the corner.


Shane finally broke the silence.

“Do you guys remember Travis Lind?”

Darren looked up sharply.

Of course they remembered Travis.

Everybody did.


Travis had been their running back in sophomore year.

Fastest kid in town.

Funny as hell.

Died in a car accident after a playoff game in 2000.

Truck slid off Highway 2 during freezing rain.

Killed instantly.


“We’re not doing this,” Cody said immediately.

But Shane kept staring at the screen.

“That road,” he said softly. “That looked like where Travis wrecked.”

Nobody answered.

Because they all thought the same thing.


Darren rubbed his face hard.

“Okay. Enough creepy crap. Tape glitches happen.”

“Do they?” Luis asked quietly.

Darren looked at him.

Luis pointed toward the paused image.

“Because I don’t remember that guy at all.”


Neither did anybody else.

And in small-town Nebraska football, everybody remembered everybody.

Especially strangers.


Benji loaded another tape.

His hands shook slightly now.

“You know what’s really bothering me?” he asked.

“What?”

“The figure keeps getting closer.”


Nobody wanted to admit he was right.

But he was.


Early tapes showed the figure distant.

Near fences.

Top rows of bleachers.

Far sideline.

But as years passed, it moved closer to the field.

Closer to them.


The next tape confirmed it.

State semifinals.

Biggest game most of them had ever played.

Snow flurries under stadium lights.

The figure stood directly behind their bench.

Clearly visible now.

Tall.

Thin.

Black clothing that absorbed light strangely.

Watching the players.

Watching Shane specifically.


Shane swore quietly.

“What?”

“There,” he said.

He pointed toward the screen.

“Right before halftime.”

Benji rewound.

Played slowly.

The camera followed Shane jogging off the field.

For half a second, Shane turned his head toward the figure.

And nodded.


The room went silent.


“I never did that,” Shane whispered.

But even he didn’t sound convinced anymore.


Darren suddenly remembered something.

Not fully.

Just fragments.

A locker room.

Wet concrete floors.

Coach yelling.

And Shane sitting alone before one game talking quietly to someone.

Someone Darren couldn’t see clearly.


“You okay?” Cody asked.

Darren looked up.

“No.”


Outside, snow had started falling lightly across Broken Bow.

Inside the fire hall, the television glow painted everyone pale blue.

Middle-aged men staring into the graveyard of their own memories.


Luis stood slowly.

“I’m gonna smoke.”

“You quit ten years ago.”

“Not tonight.”

He stepped outside.

Cold wind rushed briefly into the room before the door shut.


Shane kept staring at the paused image of himself nodding toward the black figure.

Finally he spoke.

“There’s something I never told you guys.”

Nobody moved.


“My senior year…” Shane swallowed hard. “I started seeing somebody at games.”

Darren’s chest tightened.

“What do you mean seeing somebody?”

“I thought it was stress or exhaustion or whatever. But there’d always be this guy standing near the field.”

“The black uniform?”

Shane nodded slowly.

“I could never see his face.”

Benji whispered, “Jesus Christ.”


“I never said anything because it sounded insane,” Shane continued. “But every time I saw him, we’d win.”

The heater clicked loudly.

Outside wind rattled the walls.


Cody shook his head immediately.

“No. Nope. We’re not turning this into some ghost story.”

“I’m serious.”

“You probably imagined it.”

“Maybe.”

But Shane still sounded uncertain.


Darren sat back down slowly.

Because now pieces were returning.

Not full memories.

Sensations.

Unease before kickoff.

The feeling of being watched during games.

Certain plays feeling strangely predetermined.


Luis returned smelling like cigarette smoke and winter air.

“You’re all white as hell,” he said.

Nobody answered.


Benji pressed play again.

The game resumed.

Snow falling harder.

Crowd roaring.

Then the footage skipped.

Static exploded across the screen.

The image rolled violently.

And suddenly—

The camera angle changed.

No longer filming the field.

Now filming the players directly from behind the bench.

As if another person held the camera.


“What the hell?” Darren whispered.

The footage moved slowly between players.

Past coaches.

Past helmets.

Then stopped on Shane.

The black figure stood beside him.

Not threatening.

Not aggressive.

Just present.


And then Shane spoke.

Not to teammates.

Not to coaches.

To the figure.


The audio crackled badly.

But they heard enough.

Shane saying:

“Not tonight.”

The figure tilted its head slightly.

Then static consumed the frame.


The tape ended.

Blue screen.

Silence.


Nobody moved for nearly a full minute.

Finally Cody spoke.

“That’s fake.”

But his voice shook.


“It can’t be fake,” Benji replied. “These tapes sat in Darren’s basement for twenty years.”

Darren stared blankly at the television.

Because another memory had surfaced now.

The state semifinal game.

Halftime.

Shane disappearing briefly from the locker room.

Returning pale and distant.

At the time Darren assumed he’d been throwing up from nerves.

Now he wasn’t sure.


Shane leaned forward.

“I think…” He stopped.

“What?”

“I think there were games I don’t fully remember.”

Nobody answered.

Because they all suddenly understood the same thing.

There were gaps.

Tiny missing pieces scattered through all their memories of those years.

Things they’d never questioned before.


Luis rubbed his jaw slowly.

“You think maybe we got hit too hard too many times?”

“Concussions?”

“Maybe.”

But nobody believed that either.

Not fully.


Benji looked toward the stack of remaining tapes.

“There’s still more.”

Nobody wanted to continue.

Nobody wanted to stop.


So they kept watching.


And as midnight settled deeper over western Nebraska, the old tapes revealed more impossible moments.

Extra players appearing in huddles.

Voices on audio tracks no one recognized.

Sideline conversations nobody remembered having.

And always the figure.

Watching.

Waiting.

Drawing closer year by year.


Until the final tape.

Their last season together.

The final game most of them ever played.


The footage began normally.

Cold night.

Small crowd.

End of an era none of them realized was ending at the time.


Then midway through the third quarter, the cameraman zoomed accidentally toward the far sideline.

And for the first time, the figure’s face became visible.


Darren felt his stomach drop.

Because it wasn’t a stranger.

Not exactly.

The face looked wrong somehow.

Blurry.

Unfinished.

Like several faces layered together.

But they recognized pieces.

A little of Travis Lind.

A little of Shane.

A little of Darren himself.

Fragments of all of them combined into something incomplete.


Luis whispered a prayer under his breath.


Then the figure looked directly into the camera.

And smiled.


The tape stopped.

Not ended.

Stopped.

The VCR clicked loudly.

Blue screen returned.


Nobody spoke.

Snow fell softly outside.

The heater rattled.

Somewhere far down Main Street, a train horn echoed through the dark Nebraska night.


Finally Darren stood.

Slowly.

His knees cracking.

His shoulders stiff with age and fear and memory.

“What do we do with these?”

Nobody answered immediately.


Then Shane said quietly:

“I think we remember.”


And somehow that felt more frightening than anything they’d seen on the tapes.

A Fresh Start: Overcoming Challenges and Building Connections

I’m doing well after eight months in my new home. First time since the pandemic that my living situation has stabilized. I’m now down to only one blood pressure medication per day. My water retention swelling is gone.

I’ve lost over 100 pounds in the last eight months. I’ve gotten much closer to my brother and his family since moving to Oklahoma in 2023. I probably would have moved a few years sooner if not for the pandemic.

Reading a lot of audiobooks again. I started on The Old Testament of the King James Bible around last Christmas. I’m halfway through. I’m listening to lots of history and economics books too. Recently finished one about the Oil Shortages of the 1970s. Currently working on post-Soviet Union Russia in the 1990s.

Been following sports a lot since last Christmas. Became an Oklahoma City Thunder fan when I moved to Oklahoma in 2023. It’s fun watching them making another deep push in the playoffs.

I became a Colorado Avalanche fan in 1995 after Denver got that team. Looks like they too could make a deep run in the Stanley Cup. The Rockies are not horrible this year in baseball.

Nebraska Husker men’s basketball had its best season ever this year making the third round of the NCAA tournament. And it’s looking like Nebraska football could potentially have a better team this autumn.

I have made lots of friends with the staff members here at my complex. I avoid most of the other residents. Some are too negative. Some are not with it enough to hold a real conversation. I do well here, in part, because I have no roommates. I love not having a roomie. My freshman year in college roommate was a character. After that I decided I would never voluntarily share a sleeping quarters with anyone again.

My arthritis is mostly gone after a few months of Tylenol twice a day. My goodness it was an ordeal convincing the doctor to get me on it the first four months I was here. It was like they couldn’t realize just how bad my arthritis was.

I see my family twice a month. My brother calls me once a week or so. I hear from my best friend from college usually once a week. We talk more often now that baseball season is going. We’re both huge Colorado Rockies fans. We went to one of their World Series games back in 2007. Took several months to pay off that weekend. But it was worth every last penny.

Even though I no longer actively invest, I still pay attention to the stock market and the world of investing. I see that SpaceX and Starlink will probably go public by the end of summer. I have the same feelings about those companies that I had about Facebook in 2009 and Nvidia back in 2021. Pity social security’s rules only allow a small amount in savings to still qualify for Medicaid. Such is I suppose.

I think one of the reasons I’m losing weight faster than expected is due to not eating fast food or sugar very often. Mom and Dad usually bring some Chic fil A when they come to visit a couple times a month. Ordered delivery pizza only a few times since I moved here in August 2025.

My two nephews are done with college for the summer. One is going to work for an engineering firm here in the metro. The other is looking for something in a hospital as he eventually wants to become a physician’s assistant.

My parents are enjoying the retired life. They see their grandkids often. They are quite active in their church. Dad usually has some DIY or hobby projects, like ham radio or model trains, going. Mom is busy with her gardening.

So far 2026 has been better than most years the last seven or eight years. It feels good that my living arrangements are finally settled.

Been in My New Home for Eight Months. May 6th, 2026, Updates

It’s been a minute since I last wrote about my personal life. I lost 20 pounds in the last month after holding steady for over three months. I’ve lost 100 pounds in the last eight months. I’m now down 180 pounds since summer 2024. That was when my water retention was at its worst.

Lost enough weight that I no longer have sleep apnea. Haven’t used a CPAP machine for two months. My blood pressure has stabilized enough that I only take one blood pressure medication. The water retention problems are gone too.

I still deal with arthritis. Mainly in my knees but it doesn’t hurt nearly as bad as six months ago. Over the winter I had bad arthritis in both hands and both elbows. I have since gotten that taken care of. I still have a lot of pain in my tailbone from an old high school football injury that never completely healed.

Made a few friends in here. All of them are staff members. I’m especially close to this Hispanic lady who works the afternoons, a Philippine immigrant nurse who works afternoons, a chatty red head who works mostly weekends, and a grandmotherly like lady who works mornings.

Don’t have friends among the patients. Most patients are either mostly negative or have dementia. I just don’t want to be affected by that kind of negativity anymore. Spent too much of my life around irritable and rude people. I refuse to put up with it anymore.

Got glasses during the winter. I can read and see much better now. Don’t have much for physical books other than an old Bible, but I do have lots of audio files on youtube and amazon.

Been watching a lot of documentaries on YouTube. Mostly for economics, history, and geopolitics. Think I’m going to get back into science and futurism. I also listen to a lot of suspense voice over stories on YouTube. Some are actually pretty good at falling asleep to. And I often dream about the stories when I do sleep with the audio playing.

March 8, 2026, Health Updates

Updates are due. Another season is starting. Health Updates are in order.

Weight Update
Even though the scale says I haven’t lost or gained weight in the last two months, all of the nurses, doctors, and even my family say I look like I am losing fat. Most of my gut is gone. My facial features have gotten sharper and better defined. My arms are almost skinny. My calves are no longer swollen. The swelling in my crotch is down enough to wear pants again easily.

Endurance
I can stand up regularly. Pivoting is still a chore. I sit up on the side of my bed several times a day because, well, I can now. Putting my bare feet on a cool tile floor feels good.

Blood Pressure Update
My blood pressure is under control enough now that I am now prescribed only one blood pressure medication on an “as needed” basis. I still have my blood pressure checked every morning. But half of the days I don’t need blood pressure medication anymore.

Mental Health Update
Mentally I am fairly stable. One of the doses of my psychiatric meds was cut shortly after I moved here six months ago. Over the course of six months, that original dose has been cut in half. I’m feeling better most days now than I did when I was on the full dose and living with my parents. I take only psych medications now. Nothing for anxiety or sleep. Considering how serious a diagnosis schizophrenia is, taking only two medications and having more good days than bad is pretty phenomenal.

Quality of Life Update
As far as help from the nurses’ aides, I need that only a few times a day now. I still take my meals in my apartment. What is the point of socializing while eating when the residents are either too hard of hearing to understand, too senile to follow a conversation, or always in foul moods. There is no reason for me to put up with irritable people anymore. Been putting up with them for long enough.

My pain is manageable now. I take Tylenol twice a day. My hands no longer hurt anymore; certainly not like they did at Christmas. I was having bad headaches for a couple days last week. They went away as mysteriously as they appeared.

Changes in Physical Appearance and Health
Decided to grow out my hair and beard. Haven’t had a haircut since last July. Trimmed my beard only twice since I moved into my new place. My hair is long enough to cover my ears but not long enough to touch my shoulders. Even with a few gray spots in my beard people tell me I still look at least ten to fifteen years younger than I really am. Some of my family say I look better than I did even ten years ago. Other than the fact I still have pain when I stand up, I feel better than I did back in 2015.

Social Life Health Update
Even though I don’t socialize with residents, I still socialize with the help every day. Made some friends among the aides, the nurses, and volunteers. My complex is in Oklahoma City, so it has an urban feel to it with lots of different people and cultures among the workers and volunteers. One of the items on my “Bucket List” I made in my twenties was to live in an urban area at least once in my life. Another item was to live in the suburbs at least once. I’ve accomplished both in the 37 months I have lived in Oklahoma.

Spring Has Sprung
Feels like spring here in Oklahoma City. I can hear birds singing every morning. We are getting rain again. We had bad thunderstorms in this state a couple days last week. But Oklahoma and bad spring storms go hand in hand.

Six Months in A New Home: Updates and Observations

Updates, March 2026
We are turning the calendar from February to March. It feels like spring a few weeks early. And things are going alright for me. I have lived in my current home for six months now.

Most of my pain is gone. I have been in my current apartment for six months. Made friends with a significant number of staff members. I often avoid other residents because too many of them are in foul moods most of the time or are too sick to do much of anything with. I’m still following a regimented diet but it isn’t so bad. At least three hot meals a day every day is my new normal.

Physical Therapy is on temporary hold
Decided to take a break from physical therapy around Christmas. I was doing it twice a day five days a week and ended up in severe knee, back, and hand pain. For a couple weeks my hand hurt bad enough I couldn’t even use a fork or knife with my dominant hand. So, I had to give up on therapy, at least for the time being.

Neighborhood Drama
There was a dementia patient living across the hall from me for a few weeks. He yelled and screamed continually whenever he was awake. It was keeping me awake most nights. Finally, I filed a complaint with management. After several days of back and forth, the dementia patient was moved to a different facility. After a few stressful and hectic weeks, things are starting to return to normal in my neighborhood.

New Friends Among the Staff
I have three nurse’s aides I’m really close with. One works mostly weekends, is a couple years older than I am, and has a heart of gold. She’s really nice, likes to listen to my stories, and is very good at her job. She always moves swiftly and with a sense of purpose.

A second nurse’s aide usually worked the night shift so she and I would often talk win the middle of the night when all of her work was caught up and I couldn’t sleep. Haven’t seen her for a few weeks. Last I heard she was transferred to another wing in the facility. A third nurse’s aide usually works the afternoon shift and is really nice to me. She was the one who let me know I could actually get Door Dash delivered to my room here in the complex. She’s fluent in Spanish (I took some Spanish classes in high school) so I get to work on bringing my Spanish back up to snuff with her when she’s between assignments.

Like every home or workplace, there are a few people who rub me wrong. I try to avoid them as much as possible. Some arguments aren’t worth the while. But I get along with probably 90 percent of the staff.

New Glasses
Recently got glasses. Had laser eye surgery back in 2007. I went over 18 years without glasses. I use my new glasses mostly for reading. Made a huge difference. Got me interested in reading and writing again.

I’m Reading Books Again
Started reading the Old Testament again, namely the old King James Version. Picking that back up after several years without my nose in books very often.

Finding Permanence After Several Years of Chaos
After several years of my living arraignments being anything but permanent, I have finally found a for life home here in Oklahoma City. Had to live with my parents for almost two and a half years before I got into a wheelchair accessible home. It was a rough two and a half years.

I love my parents and have made my peace with the past, but their house was not handicap accessible. Even the front door and sidewalk wasn’t wide enough for my wheelchair. But I’m in a much better situation now. My parents still come to visit a couple times a month, for which I am thankful for. Got a visit from an aunt and a cousin from Nebraska I hadn’t seen since before the pandemic shortly before Thanksgiving. It was fun catching up with extended family.

Weight Loss Updates
I’m still losing weight. Not exactly sure how much I have lost but I know I lost at least 100 pounds between Labor Day and Christmas. My goal is to eventually get to my old high school weight. I definitely feel a difference both physically and mentally.

Updates On A Life of Mental Illness, December 2, 2025

Been in this nursing home for over three months. They still won’t get me standing and walking even though I’ve lost over 50 pounds. I’m bed bound most days in spite my blood pressure and pain issues being solved. They do use a lift to put me in a recliner a few days per week.

I’ve noticed a lot of people, especially nurses, pulling double shifts lately. Usually that is a sign of financial issues, staffing issues, or low morale. Naturally no one listens to me when I point this out.

My parents don’t seem concerned at all about the home not getting me up and walking. Personally, I think they are too trusting. Both are in their late 70s and in poor health.

I have been here three months and lost fifty pounds. I can honestly say that, between not having to deal with nosy parents every day and having someone help me clean up after bowel movements, my life has improved very much. My blood pressure is low enough that they are talking about discontinuing a couple of my blood pressure meds.

I have one nurse who gives me all of my blood pressure meds every morning she is working. And then I spend much of the day lightheaded and sleepy.

I’m angry my home hasn’t even tried to get me to even stand up in the three months I have been here. I’m never going to get better if this continues. My parents think it’s no big deal and it’s nothing they can do anything about.

During the pandemic I was having health issues that was contributing to my having a dirty apartment. It was bad enough I was threatened with eviction until we hired a cleaning lady. Since then, I have resolved most issues other than mobility. That’s the last thing in my way.

Even when I get healthy enough to leave the nursing home, I’m not sure where I will go. Most low income housing is crime infested and ghetto. With my social security wages, I can’t afford even the utilities on my mom’s house. She lives in a nice, near crime free neighborhood with lots of young families and middle class retirees. I can’t afford a place like that. My brother still has two kids at home. Probably doesn’t have room for me. Maybe I could go back to Nebraska and live with one of my aunts. But both are elderly and live far away from even basic medical services. Farm living at my age and disability doesn’t appeal to me.

I’m not even sure social security disability will even be a thing in eight to ten years. The federal government already has a debt of almost 40 trillion dollars. Programs are being cut. But any politician who suggests tax increases is committing political suicide. My country is essentially bankrupt. But shit like that happens when your government runs deficits most years for more than 50 years. We painted ourselves into a corner. In short, it’s one massive and soggy shit sandwich and every American under the age of 60 is going to be eating it some every day for generations. It’s one of the reasons I don’t trust authority figures.

Even though I’ve had mostly setbacks for the last ten years, I refuse to give up. I flat out refuse to let my bullies and abusers get the best of me. I do find some satisfaction in seeing I outlived school bullies or abusive bosses and teachers. Sure, it’s petty. So are most American problems. 80 years of prosperity since the end of World War 2 has made us physically and intellectually lazy and immoral as a people. I fear that the troubles we have gone through the last several years are just Karma catching up to my nation. The thought fills me with dread. But Justice is eventually served, even if it takes generations to fully bloom.

Thanksgiving 2025

Been in my new home for almost three months now. Updates are in order. For starters, I have lost over 50 pounds since Labor Day. My blood pressure is stable enough that I need pills only once a day. I sleep mostly in the afternoons as it’s quieter in the overnight. I’m on good terms with most of the staff.

I’m probably going to start physical therapy to get to walking again in December. I’m kind of upset that they haven’t started me sooner. My pain is manageable with one dose of Tylenol per day. Most of my swelling is gone. The pain in my ankles and feet is gone.

Tomorrow is Thanksgiving. I’m guessing the home will serve traditional Thanksgiving dinner. My brother is hosting Thanksgiving at his house this year. My mobility is still limited enough that I won’t be attending. I plan on being there next year.

I’m proud of the fact that I lost over 50 pounds in less than three months. At the rate I am going I probably will be able to walk again and even get in a car this time next year. Now that I know what I am capable of, my long-term goals are to get back to my old college weight. It will take a couple more years. It can be done.

I do miss home cooking like bratwursts and cheese soup. I miss Pizza Hut pizza too. I don’t miss being stuck in my own filth. For about a year between October 2024 and August 2025 I couldn’t walk well enough to get to the bathroom in my mom’s house. I’m going to be upset if all I had to do to regain my mobility was manage the swelling, manage the blood pressure, and lose a bunch of weight. All three I have done in the last three months.

And I have pretty much done it all on my own. My home wouldn’t even use the lift to get me out of the hospital bed the first six weeks I was here. My nurses never listened when I complained about pain. No one would let me do therapy. Of course, can’t do therapy if you are in pain all the time and the nurses won’t give me anything for pain no matter what. The call button is on a cord that is too short for me to reach from bed on my own, at least until I lost enough weight to get flexible again. About the only dam thing this new home has done for me is allowed me to have controlled portions and help me clean bowel movements. I got none of that at home. Mom and Dad are too sick and elderly to help me in that regard.

In short, it looks like all I had to do was get my swelling down, manage my pain, and lose a bunch of weight. I’m now kicking myself thinking I could have done all of this back home had the house been even a small bit handicap accessible.

The home didn’t believe I could recover. Neither did my parents. For a short while I had my own doubts. But I can accomplish almost anything if I have the right tools and enough time. I didn’t have the right tools at my parents’ house. Now I do.

Summer 2025 and Mental Illness

I’ve been spending more time alone than usual this summer. My mom is done with physical therapy on her knee surgery. She’s getting around as good as ever after a couple months of regular therapy. I’m happy my mom is more mobile. But I am concerned about my desire to be more isolated than usual.

Summers are usually a tough time for me, tougher than normal. Haven’t had any major meltdowns this summer, but have had a couple sessions where I was alright after several minutes of ranting and raving. I see my psychiatrist this week. I plan on telling her I isolate more than normal and it concerns me. While I have never been Mr. Social Hour, it is concerning when I had days I flat out said I don’t care if I ever make any new friends or acquaintances. 45 years old is too young to give up on new people, schizophrenia or not.

Even though I make less than 1000 dollars a month, I still manage to have a decent time on such low wages. I pay rent every month, buy some groceries (I usually buy the non perishable food while mom and dad by vegetables, fresh meat, etc.), and manage to put a little into savings every month.

Splurging for me involves zero alcohol beer, chicken wings (I’m a sucker for garlic parmesan and medium hot wings from Pizza Hut), and Husker football games. The new season starts in a few weeks. Nebraska is expected to have a pretty decent team as most of our starters from last year’s team are coming back. I hope they are right.

I’ve also been losing fat all summer. My arms no longer jiggle, most of the fat around my lower stomach is gone. I’ve lost all the fat around my thighs. My calf muscles are huge even though I don’t walk much. I am able to walk from my recliner to my bed or my wheelchair. But I really don’t have much of a desire to leave my room.

I still socialize even though I don’t have much desire to leave my room. I have college friends I talk to a couple times a month. I talk to my brother usually once a week. I see my parents a few times a day.

I still get most of my sleep during the day. It’s been really hot here in Oklahoma lately. Typical August. Should start cooling off in a month or so. First football game is last weekend in August. First games are notorious for high temperatures.

I dream more these days. And I remember them better too. Most dreams involve me being back in childhood home town or in college. I sometimes dream about being back in Kearney and unable to find my apartment. I sometimes dream about floods and even modern ice ages. When I fall asleep during podcasts, which I do a couple times per week, I can hear the dialog in my dreams. I sometimes dream about being able to walk long distances again and even navigate stairs.

My pains have also changed. Some days I have no pain in my knees at all. Other days I hurt enough to know getting up would not be a good idea. I have more good days than I did even six months ago.

I think one of the reasons I spend so much time alone is because I want to be alone most of the time. Living in the suburbs, there are always people nearby. But in the small towns I used to live in, I couldn’t go anywhere without my neighbors knowing or commenting. It got real annoying. One thing I love about suburban living is the opportunity to be unseen and unnoticed when I want to be alone. I love the variety in restaurants too. I’m thankful my parents like trying new restaurants and bringing me some food when they get home.

I spend so much time alone because I can get most of my socializing done online or on the phone. Most of my groceries can be delivered via Kroger, Wal Mart, or even Door Dash. I can get almost everything from Amazon within two days as Oklahoma City has at least one huge Amazon facility.

Now that I have a home health care nurse who sees me once a week and a doctor come in every four to six weeks, I don’t even have to leave home for health care really. Haven’t been to a hospital in almost a year. I actually prefer doctors and nurses who make house calls. House calls were normal for generations. I’m glad they are an option again.

I haven’t driven a car in six years. I don’t miss it. I can get everything delivered. If I need a ride, I can hire an Uber or Lyft. My parents still have a car. My brother has a Tesla with self driving capabilities. I don’t need a car anymore, not even in the suburbs. I always thought the idea that everyone needed a car was ridiculous. I’m glad I now live in a time and place where I don’t need a car. Heck, the only time I really need to leave home is for medical emergency. I guess if I have to be chronic mentally ill and have bad mobility, most times and places are worse than 2025 Oklahoma City.

One of the things I am saving up for is a home humanoid robot. Sure it is several years off, but I am saving up for home humanoid help robot to help around the house, especially if my mobility never comes back. I don’t think most people realize how big robotics are going to be. Wouldn’t surprise me if robotics are bigger than even automotive in 10 years. I’m still amazed at how fast people adopted smart phones and Chatbots.