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Celebrities Who Were In The Military
I’m going off subject for this post. It’s getting close to Independence Day here in the United States. Fireworks are already being shot off in my town. In light of the upcoming holiday I’m going to post a list of famous people who served in the military, sometimes even after they became famous. Most of my sources come from businessinsider.com, huffingtonpost.com, and snopes.com.
Drew Carey, U.S. Marine Corp
Mel Brooks, U.S. Army, World War II
Dennis Franz, 82nd and 101st Air Borne, Vietnam
Montel Williams, U.S. Marine Corp and U.S. Navy, 22 year veteran
Kirk Douglass, U.S. Navy, World War II
Don Rickles, U.S. Navy, World War II
Hugh Hefner, U.S. Army, World War II
Bea Arthur, U.S. Marine Corp, World War II
Chuck Norris, U.S. Air Force
Ice-T, U.S. Army
Kurt Vonnegut , Prisoner of War, World War II
J.D Sallinger, World War II
Clint Eastwood, U.S. Army, Korean War
Jimi Hendrix, 101st Airborne
Pat Sajak, Armed Forces Radio, Vietnam
Elvis Presley, U.S. Army
Morgan Freeman, U.S. Air Force
Senator John McCain, Prisoner of War, Vietnam
Bob Barker, U.S. Navy, World War II
Orville Richard Burrell aka Shaggy, U.S. Marine Corp, Gulf War
Ernest Hemmingway, World War I
James Earl Jones, Korea
Jesse Ventura, U.S. Nay SEAL, Vietnam
Senator John Kerry, U.S. Navy SEAL, Vietnam
Sinbad, U.S. Air Force
Leonard Nimoy, U.S. Army, World War II
Gene Roddenberry, U.S. Army Air Corp, World War II
George Westinghouse, U.S. Civil War
Mark Twain, U.S. Civil War
Rod Serling , 11th Airborne, World War II
I know I have left out many celebrities who could have easily made this list, but I had to draw the line somewhere. But this list was meant mainly as a fun “did you know” type list anyway.
Solving One Problem Only To Go Onto Another
Finally got over my injured back. I can do everything now I once could. Took almost a month of ice, ibuprofen, tylenol, and chiropractic treatment. I’m so glad I didn’t have a job when this happened as I probably would have been fired or forced into burning all my sick leave. I’m so glad those issues are gone.
Now I am on to other problems. My pc crashed this morning. No doubt the warranty is already expired. Seriously folks, I don’t know why you’re worried about murderous and evil AI, Terminator robots, HAL, and Skynet. Just wait a few months and their software will inevitably crash, especially if they are running Windows. That’s how the humans will win the ‘war against the machines.’ Fortunately I also have a Mac. I’ve had macs for years and had only one crash on me. Yet it was under warranty and I didn’t pay a dime to get it fixed.
Naturally, my pc had to crash on a weekend and at the end of the month when I’m low on funds. Rarely can you schedule this stuff to crash at 4pm on a Thursday afternoon, though that is when my car crash happened 🙂 Some people are probably thinking Murphy’s law: “If anything can go wrong, it will.” Personally I’m also thinking Peter Diamandis and his take on this: “If anything can go wrong, fix it. To hell with Murphy.” Throwing a hissy fit simply isn’t going to make Monday come any sooner or reboot my dead in the water computer. Sometimes you just got to roll with it.
Why Can’t You Just Be Normal?

I admit I have never been what most people would consider normal. I have been much bigger and physically stronger than most people I know most of my life. I have usually been one of the smartest people in every group I’ve been part of. Smarts and strength do not ‘normally’ go together, at least not according to popular stereotype. I have also always been one of those rare kids who never stopped asking ‘why’ to everything. I just turned thirty six years old and I still ask ‘why’ to everything just like I did when I was eight years old.
I’m sure most of you who are parents and have dealt with grade school children get asked ‘why’ to everything. Why is the sky blue? Why is the grass green? Why did my dog die? Why do people fight wars? Why do people dump toxic sludge into the ocean? And on it goes. Tragically most people quit asking why entirely about the time they hit puberty and become interested in sex, sports, and popular culture. I never developed a strong appetite for any of these three aspects of life. My friends and I were discussing economics, science, and foreign policy when we were thirteen years old, right about the time most of our peers and elders outcasted us. I think we were outcasted because we didn’t care about the latest episode of ‘Friends’ or ‘The Simpsons’ or how bad the football team lost on Friday night.
My close friends and I were never popular or considered normal, especially in high school. While most of my rural school was listening to Garth Brooks, Faith Hill, and Alan Jackson, my friends and I were listening to Metallica, AC/DC, Green Day, Marilyn Manson, Pearl Jam, Nirvana, and other hard rock groups that were big in the late 1990s. People thought it was odd that my best friend was a girl. Most people figured we were having sex (which we never did) just to wrap their minds around the foreign concept that platonic friendships can exist between teenage boys and teenage girls.
I am not what most people would consider normal, mental illness or not. I never have been normal and I certainly don’t care to start being normal now. I never want to engage in normal behavior, especially with what I have seen out of normal people just from my previous jobs and some of my normal friends’ Facebook postings. I care about the plight of the poor. I also do not envy the wealthy. I believe climate change is real and we are contributing to it. But I also believe we will adapt to climate change, manage it, and even solve it. Our species has survived small pox epidemics, bubonic plagues, malaria, famines, hundreds of wars, the Dark Ages, and several ice ages with only a pittance of the science and knowledge we have even today. And our knowledge is only continuing to grow with each passing day. Science and knowledge are not static, don’t fool yourself. We have knocked problems down for thousands of years. We are knocking down problems even as you read these passages. We will continue to knock problems down. It is what our species does. Birds can fly, lions can hunt, fish can breathe underwater, we humans see problems and solve them. One of the most encouraging things I tell myself everyday is “many people much smarter than me are thinking things up.”
I support renewable energy. I don’t buy the whole “drill baby drill” nonsense, climate change or not. I believe we are and will keep advancing and find far better ways of powering civilization and doing things. If Henry Ford just listened to public opinion, he’d just sold faster and stronger horses. If Thomas Edison and Nikola Tesla would have just listened to public opinion, we would not have gotten electricity when we did. I also believe we would have never gotten to where we could use renewable energy without using fossil fuels first. But like the use of whale oil and wax candles, we will move beyond oil to even better energy sources. I believe we will leave the oil age long before we run out of oil, just like we left the bronze age three thousand years ago and yet we still use copper and tin.
I am not afraid of foreigners and immigrants. Ninety five percent of planet Earth does not come from America already. I guarantee you my ancestors from Germany weren’t fluent in English (nor were they doctors or engineers) when they first set foot on Ellis Island. If anthropologists are correct, we’re all immigrants one way or another. I don’t watch regular news casts because I am convinced the regular news reports only bad news and only a fraction of what could be reported. But bad news is reported on so much only because that is what we humans are predisposed to notice. It’s in our genes. Our minds can only take in so much information and survival is priority number one of all species.
I believe that decades from now, future generations will be amazed that people used to work in manufacturing, farming, and customer service instead of letting machines and computer programs do most of this repetitive work. It’s an election year in my country and all sides are talking about bringing back jobs to America. Most low to mid level manufacturing jobs are never coming back to America. Many manufacturers in China and other countries where we outsourced our manufacturing are replacing their human workers with machines even as we speak. And this is before 3D printing becomes mainstream, which it will within ten years. The days of people going straight from high school to a manufacturing job for the next forty five years with a pension, union protection, and insurance are just as dead as the days of the blacksmith and wagon maker. So also are gone the days of a family with eight kids being able to make a living on 40 acres of farmland. We simply no longer need ninety percent of our population working in farming or manufacturing like we did during the Industrial Revolution. And these people had really low standard of living by modern standards anyway. Hans Rosling gives some pretty good TED talks about how standards of living are rising all over the world, not just in North America and Western Europe.
Change is the only real constant. Trying to hold onto the old tried and true may be normal but it merely delays the inevitable. The US banned stem cell research several years ago only to see that research go to countries like South Korea and China. Now that stem cell research can be done without aborted fetuses, the US welcomed it back but will be playing catch up in this field for years to come. Normal people talk about building walls, closing off the national borders, and isolating. Yeah, that worked miracles during the Cold War and ancient China. If normal people would have had all the say, we’d have never gotten rid of slavery, we’d be systematically discriminating against women, religious, and racial minorities far more than we are now, children working in mines and mills would be considered ‘character building’, we’d still have the divine right of kings and emperors, and we would have never entered the Industrial Revolution, let alone our current Information Revolution. These same people who fear change and machines taking their jobs don’t seem to be rushing to join Amish communities or throw away their smart phones. But it’s normal to be selective, have cognitive biases, and to overestimate how great the past was while underestimating the possibility for the future. Normal is common. Normal does not change the world, especially not for the better. Normal is boring. And dare I say normal sucks.
Days of Calm and Keeping Busy
My back is essentially healed up by now. I can walk normal speed again and do my normal errands. I’m spending more time out of the apartment. Been to the park a couple times in the last week, chatted with a few neighbors, called a couple old friends, and gotten some sunshine. This was a far cry from where I was just three weeks ago. When I first hurt my back I didn’t leave my apartment for three days just from the pain. Fortunately I managed to keep myself occupied with computer games, reading, youtube videos, phone calls to friends and family, and watching soccer and basketball on tv.
I was following the Copa America tournament over the last several days. Been watching a little of the Euro 2016 tournament too. I saw all of USA’s games. I haven’t traditionally made it a point to watch much soccer except when USA is playing. I may be changing that as the US put up a decent showing until when they ran into Argentina. It helps that I have a nine year old nephew and a seven year old niece who are big soccer players. My brother encourages his four kids to do numerous activities. He won’t let them play football but I don’t blame him, especially with all the injuries. I hurt my back in a football game when I was fifteen and I couldn’t sit without pain for months afterward. Yet I didn’t tell the coaches or even my parents. I suppose it went with the whole macho mentality that pain is just a part of football. Plus playing football was the only thing I did in high school that most people considered normal. The older I get the more I feel guilty about watching football. It’s essentially people maiming themselves for my amusement. But I guess it’s not as bad as ancient Romans cheering while lions eat Christians. It’s just not as entertaining as it was ten to twenty years ago.
I still like baseball though. Don’t watch it every night like I used to. Even then I usually had it on in the background while I was doing chores, writing, reading, or doing something on my computer. I still participate in a fantasy baseball league with some old college friends and friends of friends. I met most of those guys when I was at Matt’s wedding in the Black Hills last July. So I finally got to meet some of the guys I’ve only known by their screen names. It is a competitive league but no money changes hands. And my Rockies are doing a little better than normal, just slightly below fifty-fifty.
I may have been limited for the last few weeks but I still managed to keep busy. And now that the back is cleared up I’ll be able to do even more. Fortunately I haven’t had any flare ups of the mental illness in the last month. I haven’t had any true flare ups since late March actually. The one main medication I am on was shown by the DNA test I took to be more effective than most for me. It certainly has proven that. I’m reading more again. I had been lazy about reading for a couple weeks when my back hurt real bad. I was watching educational videos on youtube and reading blogs instead. But it does feel good to see things falling back into place after weeks of hard work and rehabilitation.
Stability and Moving Into Summer
It’s been three months since I had my last psychotic breakdown. I have been on a different medication since. It is working better than my previous medication. I am more optimistic, more social, less depressed, less irritable, and I haven’t had hallucinations in three months. The only true negative of the last several weeks was the back injury that made me inactive for three weeks. I can lay on my stomach and get up now. But I won’t sleep on my back in a traditional bed until I no longer have back pain. I’ve gotten used to sleeping in a recliner. I’ve gotten used to going to sleep earlier and waking up earlier. I’m usually up by 6:30 in the morning. When I was in a bed I usually wasn’t awake until 8:00. I haven’t pulled any all nighters in a month. I think part of my stability comes from more consistent sleep. I know problems are coming when my sleep patterns change, especially when I get less sleep.
Traditionally late summers have always been tough for me. I usually start feeling more irritable than usual in early July. Usually it builds until I have a break in late summer, often in late August to early September. Both times I went to a mental hospital I went in early September. I have always been anxious, short tempered, and irritable from late July to mid September. I don’t know if it’s because of the heat or if I subconsciously have bad memories of going back to school.
Last year I had a mini breakdown in early July but got through August without much problem. The major break last year came in early October. I also sometimes have a breakdown a few days before Christmas. The holidays are traditionally an overwhelming and stressful time. I intentionally avoid malls and box stores in November and December. I can’t stand the sensory overload from the decorations, bell ringers, and piped in Christmas music. I have had to skip Thanksgiving at least twice in recent years.
I am not sure why traditionally happy times always make me depressed, sad, and irritable. Maybe because I don’t like being told how to feel or think even on a good day. I didn’t even like teachers telling me what to think in grade school. Perhaps I have too strong of an independent streak. I have never been capable of just gone along to get along. That has caused me a great deal of grief over the years. It has caused me lots of problems in school and the workplace. I never understood why people accept things they know to be questionable, senseless, and wrong. I have never been able to accept something I believe to be senseless or false. That alone has gotten me labeled a malcontent and having a bad attitude. But I am simply unable to shut down my mind and just be an obedient sheep. I’m sure I was quite a headache to some of my teachers, bosses, and parents when I was growing up. I just had to know why things were done as they were. I was that precocious child who was always asking ‘why’, even with complete strangers. But somebody has to keep asking questions and challenging the status quo. And I guess that I am one of those somebodies.
You Might Be A Nerdy Redneck If….
I’m taking a detour from my mental illness posts for this entry. I readily admit to being a nerd. I always have been and I always will be. Since I grew up in a farming village in Nebraska and live in a smaller college town surrounded by corn fields and cattle ranches, I also could qualify as somewhat of a hillbilly or redneck. Accordingly to Jeff Foxworthy a redneck is simply someone with an obvious absence of sophistication. I admit I am not as sophisticated as my college friends from California or big foreign cities. So I am often finding myself stradling the fence between unsophisticated country people and intellectual types. I have both brainy and country interests. I love reading. I love fishing. I have experimented with writing computer code. I have also fired rifles. I have watched the late summer meteor showers at my family’s acreage after days of helping my dad fix fences. I often lift arm weights while watching Star Trek reruns. I have gone to high school football games and art galleries on the same weekend. But just for fun I thought I’d post a list of “You Might Be A Nerdy Redneck” in the same manner of Jeff Foxworthy’s “You Might Be A Redneck” jokes. So here goes
You Might Be A Nerdy Redneck If……
Your working laptop computer sits on top on a nonworking one
You are afraid that Google’s self driving car will end NASCAR
You plan on using a 3D printer to make your next fishing pole
You have binge watched both Doctor Who and Duck Dynasty
You have a GPS on your John Deere tractor
You have both Stephen Hawking and William Faulkner on your bookshelf
You think the Gadsden Flag and Hunter Orange look cool under a black light
You have ordered anything in camouflage on amazon
You have used a smart phone while riding a horse
You always carry a Swiss Army knife and a scientific calculator
You can write computer code and overhaul an engine
You have ever chewed tobacco in a university lecture hall
You played both Dungeons and Dragons and football in high school
You have ever sited Sun Tzu’s Art of War, plot lines from Star Trek, country music, and Saber Metrics for baseball in the same conversation
You can easily recite Monty Python lines and George Patton quotes
You can build your own computer and do your own carpentry work
You are anxiously waiting for Tesla to build an electric pickup truck
You think ‘Smokey and The Bandit’ should be remade with a self driving 18 wheeler
You like both Japanese Anime and John Wayne
You have attended a Comic Con and a monster truck rally within two weeks of each other
You bought a piece of Ikea furniture, assembled it without reading the directions, and use left over parts in other home improvement projects
You know how to use both a slide rule and moonshine still
You want to be the first person you know to buy camping equipment and hunting supplies from Bass Pro Shops with Bitcoin
Getting Back To Stability
It’s been almost three weeks since I threw out my back. I can get around pretty decent for the most part. The mornings are the only difficulty, especially the first time I stand up after waking. In spite of my back issues I’ve been socializing more. I went to a writers’ support group on Monday night for the first time in over a year. Told people about my blog. My blog is the primary writing activity I have right now. I do occasionally write poetry but there is such a limited market for poetry. I haven’t written any kind of fiction for almost three years. But then I’ve always preferred reading nonfiction to fiction.
Mentally I’ve been very stable for quite awhile. I call at least one person over the phone every day now. Usually family or close friends. Things have gotten a little less contentious at my apartment complex in recent months. We’ve had a couple problem residents I haven’t seen in weeks so I’m guessing they moved out. After ten years in the same complex I really don’t pay much attention to who moves in and who moves out. I just pretty much keep to myself and the handful of friends I have here. The friend I made back in the winter moved out a month ago. But I’m kind of used to that by now.
I rejoined my old writers support group. I’m probably going to rejoin my mental illness support group as soon as my back clears up. There is a second writers’ support group that meets twice monthly at the local library that I’m joining starting next week. In short I’m beginning to put myself out there socially.
Been seriously tracking my diet for a week. I don’t know how much weight I’ve lost. Probably not as much as I normally would as I’m not yet very active. I won’t be very active until my back completely heals. The best I can do right now is put strict limits on what I eat and keep a positive mind set.
Today is also my birthday. I am now 36 years old. I don’t have much planned today besides going out to lunch with my family. Can’t really do a great deal for at least the short term. But the back has cleared immensely since two weeks ago. I just have to keep doing things to encourage the healing process until I’m back to full speed.
Normalcy Is Within Reach
My back is now all but completely healed. I think I’ll sleep in the recliner another two or three nights before I try to sleep on my back again. Cleaned my apartment over the last two days. The place needed it as I hadn’t been able to do much for two weeks.
My mental health has remained stable for the most part during this back injury. Other then a few bouts of irritability and a couple bouts of depression I was able to stay mentally healthy. I have kept positive especially the last several days. I attribute my stability and positivity to keeping in contact with friends and family. Over the last week I spent an average of two hours a day on the phone talking with friends and family. It’s important to stay in touch when things are rough. Fortunately this back injury should be completely healed within a couple days.
Pushing To Get Better Physically and Mentally
I’ve been actively working for the last two weeks to get my back into good health. Been icing my back most of the time when I sit down and taking ibuprofen every six hours. Last night I slept in my bed for the first time in over a week. It doesn’t sound like much but it was nice after several days of not being able to lay down at all. I slept for five hours last night but it apparently was all I needed. Woke up with a little back pain but I am back to almost good after a little ice. I’m glad to be back on the mend.
I’m also pushing myself to get back to losing weight. I’m now on day three of tracking everything I eat. Sure it is draconian and anal retentive but it’s the best thing that worked for me in the past. I know I have lost weight in the past by tracking my diet and I can do it again. In fact it may be the only way I can lose weight. Granted that won’t make me much fun when dining out with friends but it’s the best thing I have working. It’s looking like the old habits of tracking what I eat are starting to come back.
I’m also pushing myself to better my mental health. I’m avoiding toxic people, toxic places, toxic ideas, and learning better coping skills for my mental illness. I’m slowly but surely learning how to stop negative thoughts about others and myself before they become obsessions. I’ve also started listening to inspiring videos and podcasts on youtube. Youtube is a treasure trove of both positive and negative ideas. You have to actively search out the positive to find it. But that is why there are the search bars and search engines. Use them to find positive and uplifting materials. Anymore you can find whatever you want with a couple search engines. I have no excuse in 2016 to not find uplifting and reenforcing information. It’s just a matter of typing in the right information.