Haven’t had a great deal to report the last several days. Pretty much been staying home and avoiding the weather. When it isn’t really hot, it is raining it seems. Been catching up on my reading physical books though. Currently working on The Inevitable by Kevin Kelly. It’s about science and tech trends that will probably be continuing, if not accelerating, over the next thirty years. Still reading a lot of online tech and science articles. Haven’t watched much for tv lately. That will probably change in a couple weeks once football gets going again.
Still lifting arm weights three times a week and doing the exercise bike. I don’t know if I’m losing much weight, but I do notice improvements in my stamina and ability to recover from aches and pains faster. When I do get out of breath, I can get it back quicker than even two weeks ago. I have changed my diet some. I limit myself to coffee only once a day and usually with breakfast. Caffeine usually makes me jittery in large doses. But coffee and water is pretty much all I drink most days. My sleep patterns have changed some. I still sleep the same amount of time, but I usually stay up a couple hours later and wake up a couple hours later. For months I had usually been waking up at sunrise. Now I’m usually not up until 8am at the earliest.
I keep in contact with friends more. I make it a point to chat with at least one friend even online once a day, if only for a couple minutes. I usually call my parents only once a week anymore but talk for a long time when I do. They have gotten quite busy with grandkids and new friends since they moved to the suburbs of Oklahoma City. School starts in a few days so they will probably get to go to grandkids activities more often. I don’t participate as much in my online groups, usually just reading the articles and not commenting much. And when I do comment I make attempts to keep things civil and upbeat. I just don’t feel like making other people’s online experiences worse.
I been doing some maintenance on some of my electronics over the last several days. Recently dusted out my PS3, deleted all my unused files, and reset the system. It had been running quite slow for awhile because I had been neglecting to clean out the files. Even computer software can become cluttered and sluggish without proper maintenance. Did the same for my two laptop computers. I recently changed my music streaming service from a pay service to a free service. I still get my music even if I have to listen to ads every couple songs. Not much different from old style radio, granted with much more for variety. I’m also probably going to cancel other pay services I’m not using much. Most of what I need anymore I can get on youtube for free or with cheap Netflix.
That’s about all for now. I’ll keep everyone posted. Usually August is the toughest time of year for me with the mental illness. I just do better in the cold than I do the heat. Haven’t had any major flare ups lately, and I hope whatever ones I do happen to have will be short lived.
Been quite hot here the last several days. We had some flooding in my town a couple weeks ago. It caused a few evacuations in the areas of town near the river. Fortunately I missed the worst of it as I live on high ground. But it was kind of scary getting flood warnings on my phone every few hours. My cleaning lady said one of her client’s entire basement flooded. I’m glad we got it easy in my part of town.
Our complex had a major inspection last week. We have those every few years, in part to make sure everything is up to speed. As far as I know we did well. We usually do. Even though I live in low income housing, our managers have traditionally been on top of things and made points of dealing with issues before they became problems. I had maintenance men in here doing some minor work a couple weeks ago. I have been staying close to home for a couple weeks when we heard inspections were coming up. Naturally, some people were a little more on edge than normal. But since things have come and gone, it’s starting to calm down here.
Overall I think people in here, and people in general, are starting to calm down some. Or maybe I’m able to deal with people easier than earlier. I still don’t leave my house for long but I can when needed. I noticed that people seem to be more civil to each other on social media than usual. Or maybe it’s just my friends and family giving each other more slack. I do love social media. It is an easy way for someone who has issues with socializing to connect to old friends and make new ones. I have a few new friends in my discussion groups, but I haven’t given out my phone number or email address. I don’t give those out to people I don’t meet in person.
Summer is in full effect. But it won’t be long before school starts again. Our schools in town usually start about the third week in August. My nephews and niece will be starting school in Oklahoma about the same time. My eldest nephew will be starting high school this autumn. I still remember the day he was born. It was the summer after I graduated from college. The days go slow but the years go fast.
Overall feeling decent most of the time. I still occasionally have minor flare ups that don’t last very long. Sometimes just stepping back and taking a few minutes to myself is enough to clear things. Summers are usually a tough time for me. But so far it’s been alright.
Late summers have traditionally been a tough time for me dealing with mental illness. I usually have to be real careful from late July to early September. So far this year has been different. It could be due to reducing my stress levels and avoiding stressful people and places. It could be due to the medication changes I made a few months ago. And it could be due to changes in my diet. I now don’t eat much wheat or anything that’ll upset my stomach. I have found that I feel better on days I don’t eat bread than on days I do. I have had stomach problems in the past. Stomach issues aren’t uncommon in people with depression and mental health issues. I pretty much limit myself to lots of protein and vegetables anymore. About the only grains I eat on a regular basis anymore are rice based foods. Rice seems to be easier on me than wheat and other grains.
When I do go to restaurants I don’t order things like french fries or most other fried foods. I do occasionally treat myself to chicken strips at KFC. I have pretty much also cut out sugar too. When I do crave caffeine, I usually opt for green tea, coffee, or diet soda. I notice I’m less irritable on days I limit sugar consumption. Easing back on the caffeine was tough the first several days as I would occasionally sleep more than I would like and sometimes experience slight headaches once a day. But I think I have gotten past the worst of the caffeine withdrawal. I used to drink four to six cups of coffee a day, certainly not healthy when dealing with mental health problems.
I have found myself eating more vegetables than usual. Even when I order delivery pizza, I make it a point to get the mostly vegetable pizzas. I don’t feel as weighed down and bloated after a few slices of vegetable pizza as compared to the all meats or cheeses pizzas. Since I’m on a limited budget I have to be careful about buying fresh vegetables that won’t spoil within a couple days. So I usually eat a can of vegetables every days, usually green peas or green beans. I have had some good sweet corn, a Midwest late summer tradition. When I was growing up, it wasn’t uncommon to have sweet corn with dinner three nights a week during the month of August. Most of our meals during late summer involved locally grown sweet corn, tomatoes from our garden, and bacon sandwiches. My parents have introduced my nephews and niece to this August tradition too, even though it will be another few years before the kids develop a taste for tomatoes.
Overall I have felt really decent this summer. I don’t have much drama to report. I’m glad that the push for the playoffs in baseball is starting. I’m also looking forward to the start of football season here in the US in a few weeks. Fall practice has already begun and school will be starting again in a few days. I saw that many countries started their soccer seasons this weekend. I have made a habit of following the US national team since the last World Cup. I hope we make it to the next one coming up in 2018. Since the World Cup will be hosted by Russia next summer, I imagine I’ll be watching soccer at a lot of odd hours to adjust for the time differences. I have kind of gotten into soccer as I have two nephews and a niece who play the game. Even as a kid I was a slow runner but didn’t mind getting hit or hitting others. So that’s why I played football in high school. So that’s why I still watch football in the falls. But we have made it through the long stretch of summer and fall will be here soon. It helps that it has been cooler than usual the last several days in my part of the US. Makes me hopeful for fall and the return of cooler weather.
Been staying near the complex and avoiding the early summer heat the last few days. Bought groceries early this week so, in theory, I don’t have to leave the house for the next several days. I’ll probably have to stay at home tomorrow as I’ll be getting a new air conditioner and thermostat. My old air conditioner was almost forty years old and it broke down two weeks ago. So I’ve been using lots of fans and a portable air conditioner since. I’m glad that this problem will be solved soon.
I’ve been having a lot of issues hanging over my head for weeks that just seem to take longer then they should to get resolved. My sink was fixed a couple weeks ago. I started a new medication a week ago. I’ve been sleeping in a recliner for a week now as my lower back has been giving me pain. But I’ve been feeling quite stable mentally for the last several days. I don’t want to sleep all the time anymore. I’m usually awake quite early instead of sleeping until noon. I’m taking better care of myself. And I’m making a point to get out of my apartment to socialize with my neighbors for at least a few minutes every day. The socializing is going kind of rough as there aren’t any people in my apartment complex who share my interests or likes. Looking back on it, having three friends in here die within six months a couple years ago really effected me. I lost a lot of good conversations after that. So it’s tough finding things to talk about with people anymore.
Now that my back has completely healed I’ve been getting out of my apartment more the last couple weeks. At my most recent doctor’s appointment I found out I gained 15 pounds this summer. Most of this is no doubt due to lack of physical activity and my eating too much comfort foods. I did spend this summer with alternating periods of depression and irritability. I spent too much time indoors and exercising my mind and not enough exercising my body. In short, this summer has been a loss in terms of physical health and activity. The only positive of this summer is that I’m posting more on this blog and have gotten some more audience.
But fall is just a few weeks away. I can already tell the days are getting shorter. We also are no longer having several days in a row with nothing but scorching heat. Looking ahead I see that we’re supposed to have some more cooler weather over the next several days. I have spent most of my afternoons indoors avoiding the heat. Since I spent the first month of summer on the mend I never adjusted to the warmer weather. I normally have bad times during the summer. Besides the blow ups on a couple friends I haven’t had any real serious problems this summer. I know that I still have another three to four weeks of traditionally bad times ahead. Hopefully I can make it through without anything else major. I made it through last summer before having problems in October but I think working through my grandmother’s death made me more resilient because I had no options. So my problems last year weren’t avoided as much as they were delayed. So far things look good mentally.
I have been bored by the forced inactivity this summer. Besides seeing my family a few times I really haven’t had much for social activity since Memorial Day. But with the weather starting to get cooler and the nights starting to get longer, maybe my social activities will increase in the coming weeks. I admit I am not sorry to see this summer go. I’m ready for cooler weather again.
Been feeling pretty decent mentally for the last several weeks. I haven’t really felt much anxiety or aggravation this month. I am back exercising again. Still have a long way to go to build up my stamina. But it is better than even two weeks ago. I am starting to get out of my apartment complex more often. I haven’t been to the park much this summer but I am beginning to get over my fear of driving. It’s been quite hot in my town this summer, especially this month. So far the heat isn’t effecting my mood. I usually do better in colder weather than hot weather. Winter and spring are usually my best times of year.
Heard back on my insurance claim from my auto accident last October. They’re offering to cover my medical expenses and give a little extra for my troubles. I’m not sure what I’m going to do with the money as I already live debt free and really wasn’t planning on getting anything extra. I’ll probably put the money into my savings. When my car was wrecked, the auto shop had to do a few thousand dollars worth of work on the car. It was almost as much as the resale value of the car. If the airbags would have deployed or the damage much worse, the car would have been scrapped. It’s a good car with only 42,000 miles and only one previous owner. It was a commuter car for a nurse who took good care of it. It’s a good car and hopefully I can hold onto it for the next ten years.
It won’t be too long before the weather starts cooling off and school starts again. School starts in 3 1/2 weeks in my town. Since I live in a college town, this town really comes to life again in the autumn. I went to the community open house at the local state university last year. Had enough fun I might go again this year. I haven’t done much for socializing or fun this summer. My nephews and niece are visiting their grandparents next week so we’re talking about taking the kids to a museum and for a picnic lunch in my town when they are here. It’s their last fling before school starts. The oldest is starting middle school this year. And the youngest will probably start pre kindergarten this year as well.
The Olympics start next week too. I always enjoy those. I especially like watching the track and field events. I hope it goes off without any problems. I really haven’t watched much for tv or sporting events since the end of the Copa America and Euro tournaments. I especially had to watch when Team USA played. Other than getting blown out by Argentina the US team put up a better showing than I thought they would. It would go a long way to popularizing soccer in the US if they put up a good showing at the World Cup in a couple years. I follow soccer some, especially if Team USA is playing, because I have a niece and a nephew who are big soccer players already. And I have to keep reminding myself that unlike football or baseball, soccer doesn’t have tv timeouts every fifteen minutes. More than once I have had to visit the restroom while watching a game only to miss a goal.
The weather will start turning cooler within four to six weeks. The leaves will start turning by late September and the corn harvest will begin in late September and be in full speed by October. This has been a long summer for me but it is almost over. I’m pretty happy that I have gotten through much of the summer without any prolonged problems.
My back is essentially healed up by now. I can walk normal speed again and do my normal errands. I’m spending more time out of the apartment. Been to the park a couple times in the last week, chatted with a few neighbors, called a couple old friends, and gotten some sunshine. This was a far cry from where I was just three weeks ago. When I first hurt my back I didn’t leave my apartment for three days just from the pain. Fortunately I managed to keep myself occupied with computer games, reading, youtube videos, phone calls to friends and family, and watching soccer and basketball on tv.
I was following the Copa America tournament over the last several days. Been watching a little of the Euro 2016 tournament too. I saw all of USA’s games. I haven’t traditionally made it a point to watch much soccer except when USA is playing. I may be changing that as the US put up a decent showing until when they ran into Argentina. It helps that I have a nine year old nephew and a seven year old niece who are big soccer players. My brother encourages his four kids to do numerous activities. He won’t let them play football but I don’t blame him, especially with all the injuries. I hurt my back in a football game when I was fifteen and I couldn’t sit without pain for months afterward. Yet I didn’t tell the coaches or even my parents. I suppose it went with the whole macho mentality that pain is just a part of football. Plus playing football was the only thing I did in high school that most people considered normal. The older I get the more I feel guilty about watching football. It’s essentially people maiming themselves for my amusement. But I guess it’s not as bad as ancient Romans cheering while lions eat Christians. It’s just not as entertaining as it was ten to twenty years ago.
I still like baseball though. Don’t watch it every night like I used to. Even then I usually had it on in the background while I was doing chores, writing, reading, or doing something on my computer. I still participate in a fantasy baseball league with some old college friends and friends of friends. I met most of those guys when I was at Matt’s wedding in the Black Hills last July. So I finally got to meet some of the guys I’ve only known by their screen names. It is a competitive league but no money changes hands. And my Rockies are doing a little better than normal, just slightly below fifty-fifty.
I may have been limited for the last few weeks but I still managed to keep busy. And now that the back is cleared up I’ll be able to do even more. Fortunately I haven’t had any flare ups of the mental illness in the last month. I haven’t had any true flare ups since late March actually. The one main medication I am on was shown by the DNA test I took to be more effective than most for me. It certainly has proven that. I’m reading more again. I had been lazy about reading for a couple weeks when my back hurt real bad. I was watching educational videos on youtube and reading blogs instead. But it does feel good to see things falling back into place after weeks of hard work and rehabilitation.