I’m going to take a break from posting about my day to day routines during the pandemic today. I’d like to do another ‘just for fun’ post. I suppose it’s one of those odd facts about me postings.
Odd facts about me
Even though I spend most of my time alone, I actually like conversation. Granted I have a tough time with idle chit chat and neighborhood gossip. I will talk about things like history, geopolitics, economics, baseball stats, tech advances with almost anyone who is willing to engage in this type of conversation. Even when my cleaning lady is here every week I’ll look up things online and tell her about some of the headlines, especially in tech. Yeah, I’ll be telling her about something like advances in robotics while she’s mopping my kitchen or about possible medical treatments to slow down aging while she’s scrubbing my bathtub. But she is either really interested or she’s really good at humoring the eccentric loner she cleans for every Thursday afternoon.
I really don’t watch a lot for traditional television shows, not even on streaming services. I do watch a lot of interviews and round table conversations about science, tech, medicine, and economics on youtube. I watch a lot of shows that sometimes are featured on channels like History Channel, Travel Channel, etc. I subscribed to Disney+ mainly because they carry NatGeo shows.
I am far more interested in reading non fiction than fiction. I’m not sure why. Even my favorite comedy performers base their routines on pointing out how absurd every day life can be.
At least once a day, I will climb into bed, pull up my blanket, put on my CPAP machine, and just let my mind wander. It seems to be a good way to declutter my mind and relax. I try to do this for at least an hour a day, usually in the afternoons.
I really don’t like driving cars. I never have. I even sold my car last year because I didn’t use it enough to justify having it. Thank God for grocery delivery and Amazon.
I do love computer games. I especially love games like Civilization, Total War, Sim City, etc. I have never really gotten into first person shooter games.
I no longer have music CDs or even pay for music streaming. All the tunes I need I get for free on youtube or free Spotify. I don’t mind sitting through ads every ten to fifteen minutes, at least as long as it’s not longer than thirty seconds.
I don’t have a Twitter or Tik Tok account. I just can’t get my points and ideas across in a fifteen second video or a short tweet. I have a hard enough time carrying on a decent conversation on facebook.
I don’t always carry my phone around when I’m in public.
If I’m in a state of depression or anxiety, I sometimes won’t answer my phone or my door. I fear having a melt down over the phone or on a guest.
I’m still amazed at people who post articles on their facebook pages without doing a couple minutes of research to see even what the article says, let alone how reliable the source is.
I don’t use paper checks for anything besides my rent. Haven’t for years.
I don’t check my mail every day. 90 percent is junk or things I already know through my online accounts. Seriously, stop sending me coupons already. I can just as good of deals with a few minutes of online research. And businesses who try to advertise through direct mail make me not want to do business with them.
I’m surprised at how few people understand the concept of compound interest.
I sometimes get upset with youtube’s algorithms suggesting videos to me I have zero interest in. Stop sending me links to conspiracy theory pages just because I watched a few videos on the history of banking or about buying gold coins.
I don’t enjoy long goodbyes.
I can often tell if the weather is going to change by how extra sore my knees are.
I think it’s too bad that chicken wings aren’t health food.
I think access to internet is no more a luxury than electricity or running water. At one time, yes. Then again, having a roof and four walls used to be a luxury too. What century are my neighbors who think internet is a luxury living in?
I’m 39 years old and I still love heavy metal and hard rock music. Always will. If I make to be an 80 year old man and living in a retirement home, don’t be surprised if I’m still listening to bands like AC/DC and Led Zeppelin or the like.
Over the last few days I’ve broken out of some of my old routines. I have stopped spending much time on social media. I have quit watching news videos on youtube and have even shut off my internet news feed. I’m trying to break the cycle of sleeping so much. And most importantly, I have taken the time to watch some comedy videos on youtube.
I think one of my biggest problems over the last several months was I wasn’t taking any time to unwind and relax. I have been so focused on how unhappy and angry many people in my life have been that I forgot to relax. I think that far too many people are wound up for too much of the time. I think there really isn’t enough humor and laughter, at least not in recent months. Too many people spend way too much time worrying about things they simply cannot control. Are you worried about terrorism? You’re much more apt to be killed by a drunk driver or die from falling in the shower than you are from a terrorist attack. Are you worried about climate change? There are probably hundreds of thousands of scientists and engineers working on practical solutions and alternatives to polluting energy while all you can probably do by yourself is drive less and recycle your aluminum cans. Are you worried about some drug resistant super bug decimating our species? Scientists and doctors all over the world are actually working on solutions while all you do is fret over the latest news reports.
In short, worry by itself is good for nothing. That’s why I decided to stop watching current events type things and dystopian science fiction, which is most science fiction anymore, and find comedy videos on youtube. Been watching a lot of Richard Pryor, Bill Hicks, Trevor Noah, Jon Stewart, and John Oliver the last several days. I have also watched some old Penn and Teller shows. I have found that I can handle some current events and news if mixed in with healthy doses of humor and satire. And let’s face it, a lot of what has been going on the last several months looks like episode scripts that were too outlandish even for South Park. And I doubt that I’m the only person who hasn’t resorted to humor to help deal with difficulty. There are reasons that The Daily Show and Last Week Tonight are as popular, if not more so, than some news shows on traditional cable news networks.
And I think the renewed focus on humor and happiness is beginning to pay off. I haven’t really felt depressed or irritable for a few days. I’m not eating as much fast food. I’m going to bed earlier. And I’m not worrying about things and other people as much. I just feel like I have a better quality of life overall these last few days. And it’s mainly because I sought out reasons to laugh again.
Finally got over my injured back. I can do everything now I once could. Took almost a month of ice, ibuprofen, tylenol, and chiropractic treatment. I’m so glad I didn’t have a job when this happened as I probably would have been fired or forced into burning all my sick leave. I’m so glad those issues are gone.
Now I am on to other problems. My pc crashed this morning. No doubt the warranty is already expired. Seriously folks, I don’t know why you’re worried about murderous and evil AI, Terminator robots, HAL, and Skynet. Just wait a few months and their software will inevitably crash, especially if they are running Windows. That’s how the humans will win the ‘war against the machines.’ Fortunately I also have a Mac. I’ve had macs for years and had only one crash on me. Yet it was under warranty and I didn’t pay a dime to get it fixed.
Naturally, my pc had to crash on a weekend and at the end of the month when I’m low on funds. Rarely can you schedule this stuff to crash at 4pm on a Thursday afternoon, though that is when my car crash happened 🙂 Some people are probably thinking Murphy’s law: “If anything can go wrong, it will.” Personally I’m also thinking Peter Diamandis and his take on this: “If anything can go wrong, fix it. To hell with Murphy.” Throwing a hissy fit simply isn’t going to make Monday come any sooner or reboot my dead in the water computer. Sometimes you just got to roll with it.
It’s been quiet on my end for the last few days. Haven’t had any real flare ups of schizophrenia or anxiety for several days. First time in weeks I’ve gone more than a couple days without any kind of flare up. It’s been strange not having drama in my life lately. It’s just something I’ve gotten used to. I’m actually amazed when I go through days when I don’t have to deal with some drama in my life or someone else’s overblown drama.
Even though it’s almost winter, I’ve been getting out of my apartment more. I make it a point to not socialize much in my apartment complex. I still have a few problem neighbors who like to keep the drama stirred. I never understood why there are people who can’t live without drama or irritating others. I was brought up that if I couldn’t get along with someone, it was best to leave them alone. Makes it tough to trust some people when I have trust issues.
Oddly, some of my best socializing comes just from bantering and joking with cashiers and store clerks. I didn’t do this in my twenties at all. But as I have gained social skills and figured out that not everyone out there wants to take advantage of others, it has gotten easier and even fun. Found that the ones I get the best reactions out of our night shift clerks and cashiers in the 25 to 45 bracket. The younger clerks take a little more priming before they’ll joke with me. The older clerks usually won’t joke with me at all. And this is even with my jokes not being of the unsafe for work categories. I’m finding that many younger people just don’t seem that confident at work. I certainly wasn’t when I worked in my twenties. I never thought that others had that problem. I didn’t gain any real confidence in myself or even appreciation for my abilities until I was thirty. That was also the age when I came to the conclusion that I did not have to tolerate poor and uncivil behavior from others. While I was still figuring my way through my delusions and irrational fears, I thought I was the only one who had these problems. I just never knew that even those without mental illnesses had problems with not having confidence. Unfortunately that’s stuff I couldn’t learn in any book.
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