Got out of my apartment for a few hours yesterday. Spent most of that time in the complex library. Talked to a few neighbors and caught up on news. We have had a lot of new residents lately. I’ve been in here for fourteen years now. I guess I’m now one of the old timers. I can think of only a handful of people who’ve been here longer.
Been chatting with my best friend a lot lately. She’s concerned about losing hours at her job. Thankfully she earns some commissions. But we both think things could get a lot worse before they recover. In some ways I’m glad I became disabled. I’ve seen how bad customer service workers are treated by both the general public and management. It’s sickening. It was tough having my hopes and dreams killed by mental illness, but I guess if it had to happen I’m glad it happened in my younger days. It prepared me well for the challenges of middle age and this pandemic.
Don’t have much planned for today. Probably watch a couple baseball games and call a couple friends.
Been getting out of my apartment for short periods of time the last few days. For awhile I had been afraid to leave my place except to pick up deliveries. A pandemic and a tendency to be afraid of being in public are a nasty mixture. I’m lifting weights again. I had taken a few weeks off. I’m having fewer aches and pains, even in the mornings. I’m listening to more music again. Listening to mostly material I liked in high school and college. It just makes me feel good, maybe it reminds me of when I was in better health and had a better social life.
Starting to sleep less again. Been staying up later most nights. I’m now usually up until at least 11pm most nights. For most of the spring I was going to sleep shortly after sunset and waking up for good shortly after sunrise. I usually now sleep from 11pm to 8am, with a wake up around 3am to visit the bathroom.
We’ve had pretty hot weather since mid May. I’m starting to look forward to autumn again. I usually spend my afternoons reading and watching youtube shows. Mentally I’ve been feeling stable for the last few weeks. It helps that I’m not on social media much these days. Most people I can either call or write emails to.