July has faded into August. In a few weeks school will be starting again in many places. Seems that school starts earlier every year. But now that we are into August it does seem like autumn isn’t too far away. Another four to six weeks of hot weather and we should be done for the year.
Since it has been hotter than usual and for longer stretches this summer, I have spent more time inside. Haven’t been getting as much exercise as I would like. So I have been eating less. I’m back to having usually only two meals a day. But I think I have lost a few pounds despite my lowered activity because I am eating less. Mentally I have been quite stable, especially for my summer standards. I think I’m doing well just by avoiding stressful situations and people. These certainly make my life more pleasant and quiet. I’m even getting fewer aches and pains too. Even though I don’t exercise as much as I would like, I still get out and walk around for a few minutes every day.
I really haven’t talked to anyone lately outside of family. But I can do alright alone for long periods of time. Loneliness doesn’t really bother me that much. Loneliness is easier than dealing with rude and stupid people all the time. I just enjoy my quiet and alone times.
I have so far made it through half of summer with no issues. Hopefully the second half can also go well. Once things cool off for good I am usually alright. I have usually done better in winters and springs than summers and early autumns.
It’s been a few days since I wrote so an update is in order. I haven’t left my apartment much the last few days. We’re in the middle of a heat wave and it’s really too hot to be out if you don’t need to be. I still have some groceries from when I went shopping a week ago, so there’s no need to go out yet.
Even though I’m stuck at home, I have been keeping occupied. I found a free gaming site online that carries many of the old Apple games I grew up with in the late 80s and early 90s. So I have spent quite a bit of time there the last few days. I’m still working on some old computer games as well as having bought a couple cheap games a few days ago. I’m still calling my family and friends at least once a day. So I have intelligent and fulfilling conversations even without leaving my couch. Been playing enough computer games lately that it’s keeping me occupied. I usually play games while listening to audio books or science lectures on youtube. Plowed through a few audiobooks already this month. I got through the first book of Isaac Asimov’s Foundation series. It’s a good read. If you are into any kind of science fiction, I highly recommend it.
I’m also watching old Star Trek reruns on Netflix. So I’m keeping occupied, entertained, and getting my science fiction fix at the same time. It’s a shame I didn’t discover my love for good science fiction until I was in my thirties. I think I would have enjoyed those kinds of things as a teenager.
I haven’t had any bouts of depression or anxiety for weeks. I’m also no longer hallucinating. Most of my hallucinations were auditory ones that were doing commentary on everything I was doing, kind of like play by play of a ball game on the radio. I sometimes felt things on my skin, feeling like bugs crawling on my skin. When I’d go to look, there would be nothing there. Other hallucinations I’d have involved hearing foot steps outside my door, hearing my phone vibrate when no one was calling me, and sometimes I’d even hear knocking at my door that was so soft that I could barely hear it. About the only hallucination set I still have is the feeling of bugs crawling on my skin. I still get that a couple times a day.
Overall I really don’t have a lot to report. Been mentally stable for weeks and I really haven’t gone anywhere besides to the convenience store to buy soda pops a few times a week. I’m now sleeping only eight hours a night. I’ll usually sleep five hours in the middle of the night, wake up at sunrise, stay up a couple hours, then sleep another two to four hours until late morning. So far it’s working out to be a good summer routine. Fortunately have been able to avoid stressful situations and aggravating people. Hope I can keep this up for the rest of the summer.