Been several days since I have been out of my neighborhood. We’ve had a lot of snow and cold weather. It has been a colder than usual January for sure. Since I have been sitting tight and not really going anywhere, I have been living off my own cooking for almost two weeks. Good thing I’m a decent cook.
As it is, I’m going to eventually have to get out of my neighborhood and pick up more supplies. I’m not really looking forward to it. As much as I enjoy the long nights and quiet of winter, I definitely don’t like winter travel.
I have been feeling mentally stable even with the lack of activity. Fortunately I can still socialize with friends and family. My back has all but healed up. It took a week of sleeping in recliners but I think I’m doing better in that regard. I’ve gotten used to sleeping in recliners so I think I’ll do this for the foreseeable future.
Haven’t been watching news or much for other tv lately. The only things I have been watching lately are youtube shows and live sports. And that is about all. Been focusing more on my computer games like Civilization and Skyrim. Unfortunately both game types can be kind of addicting and pass the time real fast. But with the flu and other sickness going around bad this winter, it’s probably not a bad idea to stay away from people unless necessary.
We’re now three weeks into winter. It feels longer than that. Maybe because I haven’t been outside of town since before Christmas. Been housebound for much of this time. It sometimes gets kind of boring. I feel like I should be doing more outside, at least until I look out my window and see all the snow and ice. It feels daunting that we have at least another two months of this left. I’m looking forward to spring.
Even though it’s been a little more winter like the last few days, I can tell that spring is on the way. I’m starting to sleep less and even wake up earlier. I haven’t pulled an all nighter in over a week. I’m starting to do grocery shopping at night like I did in the past instead of at like 3 am. I’m chatting with friends more and starting to sort out my apartment. I had gotten lazy about cleaning since Christmas, so that was needing to change.
Mentally I’m as stable as I have been in a long time. I still don’t socialize much in person even if I make it a point to leave my apartment several times a day. Sometimes I leave for something as simple as getting soda pop at the convenience store just to get out of my apartment. I haven’t had any real bad flare ups for weeks. I don’t know if it’s because I don’t socialize that much or if I’m settling into a calm period. Late winters and springs are usually the most stable times of year for me. Late summers and early falls are always tough.
In other news, my niece and three nephews are coming to Nebraska for a few days over spring break. I haven’t seen those kids since last summer. It’ll be fun to touch base with them. I don’t get to see them very often. I do wish I lived closer to my brother and his family. Even though my brother and I weren’t close when we were growing up, I still think it’s important to keep touch with family members. Besides my parents are in their late 60s and they aren’t getting any younger. After a friend of mine told me her mom had cancer, it made me realize that easily could be my parents struggling with their health. And it got me thinking about my own health. Working against a chronic mental illness for twenty years has taken a toll on my physical health. I don’t get sick with viruses or infections very often, but I can tell I don’t have the physical strength I had even ten years ago. And people with schizophrenia tend to have shorter life spans to begin with. I can tell the stress of the mental illness is starting to wear me down. There is a connection between mental health and physical health I am convinced.
The winter is essentially over. We will probably have a couple more snows but they won’t be the type that stay around for weeks. I’m already starting to make plans for spring. And I’ll probably start spring cleaning and maintenance next week. I have a couple projects I need to get done that I’ve been putting off for weeks. It’s time to come out of my hibernation and winter exile.