Got my covid vaccine on May 5th. Didn’t have any reactions. I signed up for a home health service and two nurses came to my place and gave me the vaccine in my home. I was told it would be probably two weeks before the vaccine was in full effect. Glad I got it done. It’s been a long strange trip since last March when I more or less went on volunteer self quarantine. Since I’m overweight and mentally ill, the covid could have been worse for me. But after staying close to home, wearing masks in public, avoiding crowded places like restaurants, and having my groceries and household supplies delivered, I’m starting to get ready to return to some type of normal.
Woke up to at two more inches of snow this morning. Supposed to get real cold starting in a day or two. Thankful I have some extra food and blankets in case I can’t get out. Sounds like it’s supposed to be the worst cold spell of the winter so far.
Still keep in contact with my family several times a week. My dad had a birthday a few days ago. Didn’t get out to celebrate as his back is really hurting now. He has an appointment with the VA soon to see what his options are. Mom is doing alright. She picks up their grandkids from school a couple times per week. My brother and his wife have been working longer than usual hours lately at their jobs. My parents had their first round of vaccines two weeks ago. They’ll try to get the second round within a week or two. As I’m neither senior citizen or front line worker it could be summer before I’m eligible for mine. I’m still amazed at how fast several vaccines were developed. And not just by only one or two nations. A lady my parents bought some land from several years ago died from the pandemic. I’ve had three friends who’ve gotten sick. All three made recoveries. After a year of pandemic, hopefully we are getting close to this thing burning out. My former neighbors said they are going to host a major cook out once this thing gets under control and most people get vaccinated. I’m starting to save my money for some really good stuff. He said he’d do all the cooking if a few of his friends supplied the meat, vegetables, and desserts. I won’t argue with that.
Been doing more cooking regularly. My personal favorite is cheese and potato soup. I kind of cheat and use a mix that requires only boiling water. But I can make turn out well, especially when I add a bag of vegetables or even some Ramen noodles. It can be kind of messy but it tastes real good. My cleaning lady joked she can tell a good cook from how messy their kitchen is. When I was in college and working as a cook for a pizza restaurant, I was told you could always trust a fat cook.
Keep in contact with some old friends regularly. My friend in Denver is saving up to buy a few acres near a small town. She said she wants to eventually have several streams of income besides her regular full time job. She and her sisters were astute business people even as kids.
Back to lifting weights again. Had some bad pain in my elbow for several days to where I couldn’t lift much without pain. Took over a week to clear up. But it’s back to normal now.
I still drop in on my neighbors a few times a week. We check in on each other. My closest neighbor and my cleaning lady are the only guests I have on a regular basis anymore. I haven’t even had a chance to meet my new landlady. I’ve talked to her over the phone a couple times but haven’t met her in person. I’ll have to see her to get my lease renewed sometime this spring. But that’s usually only fifteen minutes of paper work. It’s almost routine now. Barring anything major, I will have been in my current place fifteen years this summer.
It’s been almost a year since I had my floors replaced. I have the vinyl floor instead of carpet now. It’s much easier to keep clean. The only drawback is that it is slippery when wet. But if I stay off the floor for an hour after the mopping is done it is safe to walk on. Almost slipped in the bathroom a couple times after sloshing water out during my showers. Solved that problem by covering the entire bathroom floor with towels before I shower.
Don’t know if I’m losing weight, but I am more flexible now than even three months ago. My stamina is slowly coming back. My muscles are as strong as ever but I don’t have the steam I did even three years ago. Thankful my mind is still sharp and the ups and downs of schizophrenia are easier to manage.
I still sleep quite a bit. But if I stretch for a minute or two before getting out of bed every morning I am better off. Usually take over the counter pain reliever once a day, usually with breakfast. I now limit myself to only one cup of coffee per day. Too much coffee makes me irritable. I don’t eat much sugar anymore. The only times I have soda pop is when I order delivery pizza. I don’t even keep bread in my house.
Overall I’m weathering the winter and pandemic well. Have been watching where I go and avoiding large crowds for a year now. This has to be brutal on most people, especially kids and front line workers. I can imagine people that are kids and teenagers today talking about these days like their great grandparents talked about the Depression and World War 2 to their own kids and grandkids long after I am gone. Sure it does get lonely sometimes. Thankful this didn’t hit before the age of internet and free long distance calls. My dad was telling me that when he was in the Air Force in the 1970s, a long distance call from Japan to the USA was four dollars per minute. That’s mind boggling to even me and I didn’t regularly use internet until I was a junior in high school in 1997. Makes me wonder what else is going to happen within the next couple decades. I can’t even begin to imagine the world my nine year old nephew will inhabit when he’s forty in 2051.
Had a short lived breakdown a few days ago. I think weeks of isolation finally got to me. It was intense, but short lived. In this case, I was able to vent over the phone to my family. After I had vented for a half hour, I took a long nap. I was grateful to have not had this breakdown in public. I fear if I have a breakdown in public I’ll end up in jail. It seems that in too many cases, people don’t understand mental illness. I am convinced most people, even with the internet, may not realize just how prevalent mental illnesses really are.
I have some cool neighbors that, while they may not share many of my interests in science and literature, are excellent and understanding people. They may not share my interests, but at least they don’t condemn me for having different interests. I sometimes buy them groceries and keep them company while they help with my laundry and cook for me at least a couple times a week. Even during a pandemic and bad recession, I still have cool neighbors and we help each other out. It’s helped my physical health to have more home cooked meals and more variety then I normally get.
It’s been several weeks of self quarantine during this outbreak so far. It’s more manageable than it would be otherwise because I stay in contact with my neighbors, friends, and family. I try to call my parents a few times a week. I have a friend and some cousins I keep in contact with via Facebook. I have cool neighbors who have helped me immensely over the last several months. I just hope I can pay it back and/or forward someday.
Because of my bad back and knee, my mobility is not what it was even a few years ago. Most jobs I ever had, like factory worker or janitor, I was on my feet for several hours at a time. If there is anything from my twenties and early thirties I dearly miss, it’s how easy mobility was in those days. There were many days in those years I would walk all over the neighborhood, the old downtown, and the parks in my town just to break up my days. While I am happy with the experiences I’ve had in the past and the wisdom I now have as I’m only a few weeks away from my 40th birthday, I do miss my mobility. I hurt my back in a car accident a few years ago and it was never the same even after rehab. Granted, being overweight only made my problems worse. At least I haven’t gained weight for over a year and a half.
While I don’t think I’ve lost weight lately, I don’t think I’ve gained either. My clothes still fit the same as they did eighteen months ago even with less walking and standing. I have made changes to my diet and routine that my be keeping me from really tacking on the weight. I rarely eat carbs or sugars. I lift weights most days. I sleep probably nine to ten hours a night most days. I avoid stressful situations and people as much as possible. I meditate usually an hour a day. For this I usually just lie in bed and do breathing exercises. I turn on my CPAP machine and just do the rhythmic breathing. I imagine people can get the same benefits through just focusing on their breathing with their eyes closed or through prayer. It also helps that I eat more vegetables. Even though most my vegetables are canned or in soups, it’s better than nothing. I take a multivitamin every morning. I take a vitamin C pill too. I’ve heard it can help boost immune system. While I still get colds, they are usually mild and last only a day or two at most. Sometimes I will wake up with a bad running nose and sneezing. After a vitamin C pill and extra fluids with breakfast, I’ll be fine within a few hours. And my fluids are usually nothing more than just tap water or cold tea.
I still have aches and pains, usually in the mornings. Sometimes actions as simple as getting up and moving around for a couple minutes can be enough to clear this up. It can be cleared up with something as simple as getting out of bed, using the bathroom, and doing my morning wash up routines. Warm baths can help with sore joints too. My dad always said soaking his hands in warm water every morning helps with the pain in his fingers and thumbs. Now that I’m starting to have sore knees, I understand why he does this every morning. Many times the best thing I can do for sore joints is to force myself to move around. Even when I’m working on a blog or watching a movie, I force myself to stand up usually once every hour no matter how busy I am. I do the same thing when I’m reading a book in bed. My joints thank me when I move around more regularly. Maybe it was a good thing that I rarely had desk jobs in my younger years.
Even during a quarantine and major recession I try to stay optimistic and positive. I usually make myself watch at least one encouraging video per day on Youtube. I have been watching videos on positives that are coming due to the pandemic. One positive for me is that I am forced to watch my physical well being more closely and I have more of a sense of urgency to stay in contact with family and friends. In the past, I was sometimes guilty of being annoyed if a friend or family member called my phone when I was preoccupied. I’m not nearly this bad anymore. I don’t even really get that annoyed when someone calls and I’m in the bathroom or sleeping. I’ve even found myself telling my friends when they found out I was asleep, “I needed to be woke up anyway. Don’t feel bad.”
We are now several weeks into this crisis. While I’m not naïve enough to believe we will have major sporting events even this fall, I am hopeful that we can weather this crisis. To quote Matt Damon from ‘The Martian’, we will “have to science the **** out of this” but we are already doing this. I am hopeful we can have a vaccine and or effective treatments for this corona virus by this time next year. My mother remembers the polio crisis in the 1950s and getting vaccinated when she was a child. I imagine the generation that are children right now will be talking about the corona quarantines of 2020 even when they are old men and women. Hopefully, a few of them can be talking about while living in colonies on the moon and Mars. As bad as the job losses and conflicting information has been in 2020, I can’t imagine how tough this pandemic would have been had it happened back even in the 1980s before easy access to internet and the medical testing we have now.
Been warmer and sunny the last two days. While I didn’t go outside, I did have my windows open during daylight hours. Even though spring has officially started, we are supposed to have some chilly weather starting this weekend. My town has even a forecast for snow on Easter Sunday.
My neighbor gave me a facemask two days ago. I wear it whenever I answer the door. I haven’t had any deliveries for a couple days. I’m sitting alright in terms of supplies and food. So glad I listened when one of my friends mentioned back in early February that this could outbreak could get rough. Allowed me to beat the rush when it came to getting supplies.
Social distancing hasn’t been much of a problem for me. I was isolating and not going out as much for at least the previous year. Now I no longer have to feel guilty for it. I haven’t had any symptoms, at least not yet. I do take vitamin supplements every morning with breakfast. I still wash and disinfect my hands several times a day.
Talked to my cousin this afternoon over facebook. She is married to a career Navy man. She’s handling it alright, even with two young children. My hometown has at least a couple dozen cases, but then I do live in a small town of less than 40,000 people. It is a college town, and with the college going to only online classes, there aren’t as many people in town. It feels quiet like summer around here, granted without the warm weather. My town always comes back to life in late August when the college students come back. Even though it’s been 15 years since I was a college student myself, I still have many happy memories from those years. And I am grateful that facebook allows me to keep in touch with many of my old classmates. My dad had always said he regretted not keeping in closer contact with his college and Air Force friends. I hope people my age and younger don’t make the same mistake.
Sleeping well overall. Been feeling stable for the most part. I sometimes do get a little irritable. I guess it was only a matter of time before some of the symptoms of my schizophrenia crept back in. I don’t feel paranoid about my neighbors, landlady, or even the coronavirus. But I guess I do sometimes get irritable about having to stay home all the time and just being so limited. Yet I can deal with this. Just press through. If my grandparents’ generation had to go to war or work in war time industries, then the least I can do is stay home and stay healthy until the pandemic burns out.
I still take my psych medications every day. I’m not about to ration those. I have a set up with my doctor and my pharmacy where I get 90 day supplies at a time. And I have been able to change over to having my medications mailed to my house so I don’t have to drive out in a blizzard or anything like that. I also had some samples saved up from my doctor’s appointments. I explained to the doctor why I wanted to do it this way. I was completely up front in saying in case I couldn’t get out for several days I wanted an emergency supply. I’m grateful he agreed. I guess growing up in a farming community and having lots of farmers and small business owners on both sides of my family, we took emergency preparation seriously. No, we didn’t build a fallout shelter in my cellar or listen to conspiracy theories when I was growing up. But, with the nearest Wal Mart over an hour drive away and the nearest grocery store being a 15 minute drive away, we knew very early on if we had some emergency, whether a natural disaster, etc., we would have to be on our own for at least several days. Every farmer I knew had either a gas powered generator, solar panels for emergency electricity, or both even back in the 1980s. Having a plan for emergencies is a good insurance policy. I sleep better at night knowing I can weather at least some crisis.
It’s been a good start to the day so far. Went to bed at sunset last night. Woke for a few hours in the middle of the night. Slept a few more hours until 8am. Talked to my mom for awhile. She and Dad went to Lowe’s to curb side pick up some supplies. I wasn’t on social media much yesterday. Read a lot yesterday. Picked up a couple classics I had been working on but took a several day break from.
Got some medications refilled yesterday. My laundry is done for another week. And I’m just waiting out the coronavirus, like most of the world. Sleep and meditation helps me stay calm.
Last day of March as I write this. I haven’t been outside in two weeks. The only time I leave my apartment is to pick up deliveries. Had a pizza delivery this afternoon. I was ready for a day without cooking.
I been reading more online articles. Been watching some youtube videos. Some of my favorite channels are the best of reddit videos. Haven’t been binge watching amazon prime yet. I may start that in a few days.
I slept most of yesterday afternoon. So I was awake most of last night. It was eerie how quiet everything was in the overnight hours. Things are much quieter now than normal even in daylight hours.
Oddly I haven’t been feeling much stress or anxiety lately. Maybe that was from getting my supplies earlier than most people. It helps I don’t have to run out to the stores every time I need something. Been getting home delivery for groceries and medications for three years. I was used to it before it became vital. And since my paranoia sometimes made me isolate for days at a time, being on self quarantine hasn’t been overly disruptive for me.
As of right now, I’m not running short on anything. I did have problems getting Lysol spray. I was lucky enough to find I had a spare can I forgot about under my sink. I didn’t horde hand sanitizer as I don’t normally go out in public for long periods of time. I definitely didn’t horde toilet paper.
Started drinking tea and coffee again. I usually have a cup of coffee with breakfast and a cup of tea in the afternoons. I have found that drinking just a plain cup of hot water often settles my guts. My grandma did this for years. Said it helped settle her stomach.
I talk to friends at least once a day. I call my neighbors every afternoon. I call my parents every morning. Some of the videos I watch on youtube are along the theme of tech advances that will come due to coronavirus. I also watch comedy shows too. Saw a couple Monty Python movies last week. Saw a couple George Carlin and Bill Hicks shows too. I’m thinking trying to find some old Eddie Murphy and Richard Pryor later this week. Thinking of finding some old Jeff Foxworthy too.
Been dressing pretty comfortable too. Most days I just were t-shirts and sweat pants. I do wear sandals when I have to venture out to pick up deliveries. I still take hot baths every morning. Those help loosen my joints and I think the humid air helps too. I don’t have any visitors other than my neighbor helping me with my laundry every Wednesday and my cleaner arriving every Thursday. Since I got my new hard flooring, I no longer need to have it vacuumed. I did buy a new broom and lots of Pine Sol. Seems to be less dust in my place now that I don’t have carpet for it to get caught in.
The days are getting longer and the weather is starting to warm. I usually run my furnace only in the overnight hours. I usually run the fan during the days. I’ve had my windows open a few times to let some breeze in. We’ve had quite a bit of rain the last several days. But the trees are starting to bud and the grass is starting to green. Spring is here.