Been having bad knee pains the last few days. My mobility is more limited than usual. So I’ve been putting ice on my knee and taking it easy since this weekend. Sometimes I’m glad I don’t have to work a regular job and not just because of my mental illness.
Getting ready for winter, at least I was until my knee started acting up. Stocking up on canned food and peanut butter. So glad I don’t have food allergies as peanut butter is good and cheap emergency food that can keep for quite awhile. Bought a fleece blanket in addition to the blankets I already have. Been spending most of my evenings under a blanket and reading. I’m still lifting weights three times a week. Been doing this since the spring. I’m pretty sure I’ve lost weight but I don’t know how much. I know I’m down one size in clothing all around since the spring and I recover from aches and pains faster. The worst time for aches is right after I wake up in the mornings. Fortunately hot baths usually cure those.
My sleep patterns have changed, again. I usually go to bed around 11pm, wake up at 3 am and rattle around for a couple hours. Then I go back to sleep around 5 am and sleep until about 8 am. I don’t nap as much in the afternoons, usually only a couple times a week. My sleep patterns change with how my illness affects me. I usually sleep more when I’m distressed and having more frequent flare ups.
Fortunately haven’t had much for serious long lasting flare ups since this summer. I still get some a few times a week. Lots of caffeine can make these worse. So can socializing with rude and irritable people. Been avoiding people in person as much as possible lately. It just seems like people are more irritable and on edge than usual lately. I even avoid talking with some friends because it seems like they just want to do nothing but complain anymore. I’m sorry, but I have enough problems of my own and I’m not always stable. I avoid friends sometimes because I’m fearful of having flare ups and melt downs on them. I fear jeopardizing the friendship because I can’t process stress and negative vibes very well anymore. I’ve already lost a few friendships over the last few years because I can’t process negativity well. I don’t want to lose anymore.