Haven’t been outside of my neighborhood for almost two weeks now, mainly because of the bitter cold, snow, and ice. I haven’t even gone outside this week because it’s been so cold. Hopefully it doesn’t stay this bad all winter because I’m beginning to get kind of tired of being housebound all the time. And I don’t think I’m the only one. Seems to me that even my family are starting to get short tempered and irritable over the cold weather. My neighbors are getting short tempered too. And of course the people on social media have been short tempered and joyless ever since social media was opened to the public at large. At this point I’m not sure I want to stay in touch with anyone besides family and a few close friends. It just seems that humans get some kind of sadistic joy out of being angry all the time. Personally I’m burned out on all the anger and pessimism. Have been for a long time.
I almost never heard anything good about my fellow man or the world in general from my teachers and elders while in school or even in college. I had one teacher in junior high who seemed to get joy out of ranting about how the “cold cruel world” was going to kick our thirteen year old butts. And of course I rarely heard anything good about people in general from the news stations or even church service. After observing these happenings until I was in my mid twenties, I started taking notice of what was actually happening compared to what I was being told by my elders and bosses. After the economic crisis of 2008 and hearing that civilization was fixing to collapse any day, I payed attention and took notes. Of course it didn’t happen and the people who stayed in the stock market and didn’t panic are now making major money. That is when I came to the conclusion that the crowd is usually wrong. The whole ‘wisdom of crowds’ usually comes to nothing or mob mentality. The world didn’t end with Y2K, or 9/11, or the housing bust of 2008, or the Mayan calendar of 2012, or when the conservatives were in power, or when the liberals were in power, or when social media became a festering cesspool for people to gladly wallow in negativity and pessimism. After years of hearing that the world was going to end any day now and that younger people (or older people depending on who you ask) would be the death of us all, that’s when I had enough. Enough is enough. I have had it with fear mongering and pessimism about things that never come to pass or turn out to me more manageable than we previously thought.
Many worries are much to do about nothing and come to nothing. And everything else seems to be more manageable than previously thought. If our species can survive world wars, crippling famines, plagues that kill off millions of people, ice ages, tyrants, incompetent leaders, and even science used for evil purposes, some people can survive just about anything barring a comet hitting our planet or the sun going out. I probably wouldn’t survive most major events, primarily because of my mental illness and declining physical health as I age. But it’s okay as far as I’m concerned.
I can say that I have lived a pretty good life considering the circumstances of having a mental illness my entire adulthood. I have a good relationship with all my family members, I got to know my nephews and niece, I got to know quite a bit of my family history, and preserve it, before my grandparents died, I have cool friends who are willing to at least put up with my eccentric behavior and mental breakdowns, I haven’t been to jail or homeless, the longest I spent in a mental hospital was one week (and I have been working with a mental illness since age seventeen), and until recently was in good physical health in spite of fighting weight problems. When I was a teenager I was able to go scuba diving and climb an Aztec pyramid when I visited Mexico. In my early thirties I could walk five miles a day easily in spite weighing over 300 pounds. I got to hike and camp in the mountains of Colorado. I got to see B.B. King preform live a couple years before he died. I got to see country music acts like Brad Paisley, Reba Macintyre, Sarah Evans, etc. preform live before they became big stars. I have been able to live on my own with a mental illness for almost fifteen years. And I got to learn about some of the cool things that science and tech are doing that will be coming to fruition within the next ten to twenty years. My only true regret is that I might not live long enough to see some of the really cool things coming, like colonies on the moon or the first people on Mars or life extension tech or nuclear fusion plants. But I am convinced that such things are coming in most people’s lifetimes. And I am not an optimist by nature. I had to force myself to become this way until eventually it became second nature.