After six weeks of being on a different medication I am now adapting to the changes brought about. I usually don’t need as much sleep so I now usually wake up earlier. I have found myself slightly more sensitive to caffeine. So I usually shut off the coffee and black tea after four p.m. unless I want to be up most of the night. I have been spending more time outdoors and restarted the exercise routine a few days ago. I am still kind of rusty but I hadn’t been doing much exercise for three weeks because of the weather and medication changes.
I am also regaining some of my lost emotions. I have felt a little loneliness over the last few weeks. For months I have been content to spend the vast bulk of my days in isolation with as little interaction as possible. I never did well at socializing, especially growing up in a small farming village where most people didn’t share my type of interests. But I am now wanting to socialize again. I find myself leaving my apartment at least a few times a day. Previously I used to leave my apartment only once or twice a day if at all. I have had days I didn’t leave my apartment, especially in the winter. I also feel a little more happiness. Used to be the only real feelings I had for a couple years were anger and quiet contentment. I didn’t relax and feel happiness because I didn’t know how. But the ability to feel happiness is beginning to come back. I am now able to feel a little anger and irritation without fear of going psychotic. I haven’t had a psychotic break since I changed my medication. I switched back to an old medication I had been on for several years. The DNA tests I took shown that this medication worked really well for me. So it confirmed something I already suspected. I’ll see my psych doctor again at the end of the month and we’ll look into changing a second medication then. I knew this would be a long process when we started. But it’s certainly better than having psychotic breakdowns every six weeks.
I admit my physical health and exercise has taken a lower priority since I started this medication change. I have gained a few pounds in the last few weeks. My endurance has really dropped off. It’ll probably take several more exercise sessions before it really starts coming back. But I’m getting back into exercise again, especially since the weather is warming up.