Been on my new meds routine for almost a week now. I’m beginning to notice some positive differences. I need less sleep, it takes more to become irritated, I move about more, and I even have better concentration.
My lab results came back too. I am not diabetic (thank goodness), and all my other vitals checked out within normal ranges. My cholesterol was in the 220s, so I will have to watch that closer. I picked up replacement parts for my cpap machine. I also started the paper work to try to get a home health aide to drop in on me every few days. Overall, things are beginning to look brighter.
2019 has been both a good and a tough year for me. I gave up most fast food and sugary foods. I lift weights three times a week. I’m less tolerant of people who try to mistreat me. But I’ve also had some tough times too. I isolate a lot more. I no longer want to socialize with most people. I go through bouts of hopelessness and depression more. Somedays all I want to do is sleep. I sold my car. I gave up driving, just too much sensory overload and too stressful. I guess I have gotten to a point in my life where I have almost zero tolerance for stupidity and rudeness. And I have a lot of these the last few years, more so than usual.
2019 was a tough year in some respects. I fear 2020 won’t be any better, at least not as far as socializing goes.
A Life Of Mental Illness 
With mental health, I’ve learned theres highs and lows. When you think about that its comforting to know, even people with mental health have that. Over socializing it can be difficult. I would isolate myself because I’m the one person who understands what I’m going through and what I need to do to make my day more manageable. However difficult though it is to have friends and socialize I found loneliness worse. Suggestion, set yourself small goals for 2020, achievable goals and work your way up to sizable ones. You’ve obviously came along way this year, that shows that your a fighter. Well done and continue to fight on!😊
I try my best. Even trying and failing is better than flat out giving up
Absolutely! I battle with depression and Post traumatic stress disorder, I can relate. And it is better to try and fail than never to try at all.