Been staying close to home the last several days. Did get outside for a couple hours today just to replenish on sunshine even though it was barely above freezing. I am staying occupied even if I don’t leave my house much. Cleaned some in my apartment this weekend. I also cut my hair. I bought myself a hair trimmer for Christmas and wacked off my hair. I had let it grow shoulder length. With that length of hair and my full beard I was looking like an extra from Game of Thrones. Now I look like a military recruit at the start of Basic Training.
Been exercising at home lately. I got a stationary exercise bike from my dad before he moved out of state. I use that several times a week. My stamina is slowly coming back. And, unlike walking, it doesn’t really bother my lower back. My sleep patterns have changed too. Anymore I usually go to bed around 9 or 10pm usually to wake up at 5 or 6 am. Most of my awake time is spent in daylight hours now even though it is late autumn.
I still don’t know what I’m doing for Christmas. It depends largely on the weather. I would love to go see my parents’ new house and my brother’s family. I saw his kids over the summer but I haven’t seen him or my sister in law since Thanksgiving 2017. I guess if I can’t go see them in person I’ll have to dust off my Skype and talk to them that way. I am looking forward to the college football holiday bowl season. That has always been one of my favorite sports events over the years. I enjoy watching football and it gives me a chance to see teams I don’t see very often.
Been chatting with old friends more often lately. I guess now that the end of the year holidays are here, people are taking more time to reconnect to family and friends. Even though I don’t usually talk to many people in person, it’s not because I hate people. I usually don’t talk to people in person as much if I don’t have common interests. I have always thought it would be cool if there were entire communities of people with similar interests and passions living together, much like college dormitories or artists’ communes. But I guess good luck getting such set ups for science and history enthusiasts together without the considerations of money or jobs. Maybe in future centuries there will be such places. For now, I guess hobbies and interests groups on social media are the next best thing.
I have spent much of my life alone because I have rarely known people with my kind of interests and passions. College was fun in that I did meet many people with my interests. It was also a place where being eccentric and quirky wasn’t condemned but generally tolerated. I miss that about living in the adult world, not many people with my interests and generally little tolerance for being different than the norm, especially in work places and social settings.
I was never a conformist as a kid and I certainly refuse to be one now. Sure it has made me lonely over the years and on the receiving end of much harassment and abuse, especially in the work place. But I can’t stand the thought of being just another soulless empty suit in an office or another cog in an industrial wheel. Maybe disability was the best thing that could have happened to me in this regard. As much as I didn’t fit in during my teenage years, I fit in even worse in the workplace and adult dating scene. But I no longer regret either one. In fact, I am thankful for this.