I’m back to keeping odd hours again. I usually sleep in the late mornings and early afternoons while being awake often until sunrise. I still get enough sleep and I make it a point to get out of my apartment some everyday. But I have found that at this point in my life I feel less paranoid and irritated in the middle of the night than I do in the mornings. I never have been a morning person. Even as a kid I would often stay awake late and read books even on school nights. I’d be up all night sometimes during the summers and Christmas breaks just reading. While I don’t do as much serious book reading as I once did, I still do audiobooks and listen to science and history lectures. That is my form of entertainment. I have also gotten into learning do it yourself fixes around the house via youtube videos. I’ve recovered crashed computers, sped up my play station, and done various around the house hacks just by watching a few videos. I have to find something quiet to do when I’m awake in the overnight hours. I just as well be exercising my mind.
Winter is practically over in my hometown. Most of the snow is melted. Baseball preseason is in full swing and the regular season will be starting in a couple weeks. During the spring and summer I’ll often have a baseball game on the tv in the background while I’m reading a book or working on a computer. Live sports is about the extent of my traditional tv viewing anymore and even this I don’t watch as much as I did even five years ago. If cable didn’t come with my apartment I wouldn’t even have it.
I’m looking forward to spring. This winter has been harsher than usual. Other than a few days at my parents’ place in February, I haven’t been outside of my hometown this winter. But my town, while not a city by any stretch of the imagination, has almost everything I need within driving distance. What I can’t get in my hometown I can always get delivered via internet orders. In short I really have no real reason to travel much anymore besides seeing friends and family. And travel is more stressful for me than it was even a few years ago. I really no longer enjoy the long road trips like I did in my twenties and early thirties. I have no real plans to travel this summer. I guess I really have no immediate plans other than continuing to do the blog and stay stable. But sometimes staying stable with mental illness is a full time job by itself.