Things have calmed down considerably for myself the last few weeks. I’m back on my normal doses of meds and I haven’t had a mental breakdown since about Halloween. I still haven’t worked up the nerve to brave the mall during the Christmas rush. But I see no need to as I did all my shopping online this year. I think I’ll be doing all my shopping online for the foreseeable future.
I have felt quite calm the last few weeks. I’m back to mediating at least once a day. I leave my apartment more now. I just don’t go entire days without leaving the apartment anymore. I still don’t watch regular news as I have realized I’m not missing much. I really don’t watch regular tv anymore. If my cable didn’t come with my apartment I’d cancel it. I don’t use it.
I’m still eating less. For a couple months when I was eating out twice a day I ate a lot and gained some weight. Now I usually make it a point to have at least one day a week without meat. Been doing that for several weeks now.
Slowly but surely I’m settling back into my traditional routine. It’s been a long time since I had any calm for more than a few days. I think it’s coming back.