I’m still healing from my back pain. I’m able to walk short distances again. I was able to run some errands three days ago so I don’t really have to leave my apartment for the next several days. But since my back is clearing up I really think I should be back to normal within a few days. I’ve been sleeping in a recliner the last few nights to rest my back. The last time I try to sleep on my back I could barely get out of bed. My routine has definitely been thrown off since I hurt my back. And the worst part is I don’t know what I did to cause my back pain.
The weather has gotten much warmer just about the time I hurt my back. Haven’t been able to get out and enjoy it at all. I usually go to the park several times a week during the summer. Haven’t been able to do this for almost two weeks. Makes me feel like I’m missing out. But I can’t rush this recovery. I tried to rush things a few days ago and it set me back at least a day.
Been holding up mentally during most of this process. I’ve had a few moments of depression and irritability during those times of weakness. When I first hurt my back I thought I’d need two or three days of ibuprofen and ice and I’d be back to normal. Didn’t turn out that way. I haven’t had crushing bouts of depression during the last week and a half I’ve been mending from this injury. I’ve had more boredom than anything. But even with the boredom I haven’t called friends much during this injury. I just haven’t had much to talk about with my friends during the last several days. That’s probably the most depressing part of the whole deal. Being on the mend has made me really feel like I’ve lost connection to my neighbors, my community, and my friends. I haven’t done anything socially since I hurt my back. It really has been boring. Fortunately I haven’t had any relapse of the psychiatric problems in these last days.
I have pretty much spent most of my days playing computer games, watching youtube videos, and watching baseball games. Not exactly really thrilling but there’s only so much I can do until my back returns to normal. I have called my parents every other day to have some resemblance of a social life. I can’t wait until my back finally clears up. This certainly has made me appreciate my physical health more.
Reminds me of my week in the hospital in March. The TV in the room had nothing interesting to watch. At one point my phone wasn’t charged and it took a few hours to get a charger from someone. I had trouble concentrating on a book I had. My sudoku puzzles no longer mattered. And to top it off, five days after I got home, I got attacked by a Pitbull. It goes on and on, but eventually things return to normal and the bad time is a memory. I’ll be glad when your back is better. I guess I’m trying to sympathize and may not be doing a good job of it, but I love your blogs and they help me deal with my own life. Get well. Keep blogging.
It’s very isolating I know. Can be frustrating. Hope you heal soon!