It’s been awhile since I last posted anything of my own doing on this blog. For that I apologize. Sadly, it has been a rougher last few weeks than normal. Yet this was expected as late summer, especially the month of August and early September, have traditionally been the toughest times of year for flare ups of my mental illness. There is in my case seasonal aspects to my mental illness problems. Both times I committed myself to a mental health facility have been early in September after weeks of buildups of problems that usually began about late July. After having these mental illness problems and seasonal flareups for going on seventeen years now, I have come to see that there are times of the year when my illness is often far worse than normal.
Even though I know and acknowledge that there is a seasonal aspect of my mental illness, I still haven’t pinned down an exact why it is in late summer. Often, people with seasonal aspects of mental health problems tend to have their problems in the winter or during times of the year when they experienced at least personal tragedy. I doubt in my case that my seasonal aspects are due to personal tragedy as people who have died that were personally close to me have almost without exception died in the winter months. It could be that my seasonal problems have to do with weather as late summers in my home state of Nebraska are typically very hot, occasionally humid, and often suddenly changing. I personally always enjoyed cooler weather as my favorite times of year are autumn and spring. I don’t really mind winters that much except that I personally don’t like driving on snow packed and ice covered roads that are the norm in my part of the USA. Regardless of my appreciation for the change of seasons, don’t sign me up for summers in Texas or winters in Minnesota. I have college friends from both places and I’ve heard their ‘horror’ stories about the weather.
I no doubt have times of the year when my mental illness is worse than others. Unlike many people, my problems are often in the summers instead of the winters. I still haven’t figured out the why as to this. I simply know after having these problems for at least seventeen years that there are trouble times in the course of the year. I’ve come to understand this and plan accordingly.
You are a strong man, Zach. You are giving voice to a subject that we need to pay attention to as individuals and as a society. Thank you.
Thanks for the encouragement. I do whatever I can with what I have.