Besides buying groceries and running a couple miscellaneous errands around town, I haven’t been out that much this Christmas season. I have mainly stayed home, worked on some projects around my apartment, cleaned a little, and rearranged some of my furniture. As I don’t have much for furniture the rearranging took less than a couple hours. I’m also messing with a few new computer games I bought for myself as an early Christmas gift.
I still haven’t worked up the courage to brave the mall or box stores. The crowds are bad every holiday season. I get real bad sensory overload from the lights, bells, bright decorations, crying children, and stressed out adults. I don’t enjoy holiday shopping. I’d rather just buy all my gifts online and let the post office worry about delivery. That and I don’t have to put on shoes when I’m shopping online.
A few months ago I decided to monetize my blog and see if I could make something off it. I also set up a pateron account. Between the two of them over the last few months I made some money. Granted it’s only a few bucks but I had no expectations when I started doing this blog three years ago. Even though I have had the taste of making some money through my online work, I’m not delusional enough to believe I will become rich from my blogging. I doubt I’ll even be able to get off disability insurance from my writings. But I don’t care that much about the money. I have learned to live on not much, at least not much by American standards. If this blog became popular enough that I could buy a pizza every month from my blog earrings, I’d consider that a huge success.
In some aspects I already consider this blog a success. I have gotten dozens of messages from readers that have told me that what I am writing is helpful. I got one message from someone who claimed he was biased against mentally ill people until he read several of my postings. Changing minds one blog post at a time I suppose. Another success of the blog is that the audience has grown bigger with each passing year. I am happy with what this blog has been able to accomplish in only a few years of determined effort. In the back of my mind I always wanted this blog to have lots of readers and be well known within the mental health community. But I didn’t set myself up for disappointment if my blog never got noticed. I would blog even if I didn’t get paid or if my blogs weren’t read by more than a couple people. I post this material also for future audiences as something that may be able to help anyone years down the road. If something ends up on the internet, it’s practically permanent anymore. And that is still considering that over half the world’s population still doesn’t have easy access to internet. Think about it, over three and a half billion people still haven’t seen a youtube video, bought anything online, or seen a troll face meme as of December 2016. The internet is not going away. Neither are mentally ill people who will tell their stories and demand more fair treatment.