Spring is here finally. Mentally feeling good for the most part. I sometimes have flare ups of paranoia and irritability, but fortunately those quickly pass. I have noticed that as I have made changes to my diet and sleep patterns, the bouts of paranoia and irritability get less severe and easier to deal with.
Been lifting weights and eating healthier for three weeks. I’m starting to notice some positive changes. I find myself eating less overall. I lost most of my cravings for sugar and carbs. Some days, like today, I don’t eat meat (big change for me). On days like this I get my protein from things like peanuts and beans. I haven’t eaten fast food in months even though I live within walking distance of at least six restaurants. And I used to eat fast food three times per week. It just doesn’t do it for me anymore. It just leaves me feeling weighed down and lethargic. I feel the same way about soda pop. I have cut back on my caffeine to where I usually have only one or two cups of coffee in the morning and that is it.
Anymore I try not to spend much time on social media except to chat with people. I almost never look at other people’s profiles, preferring to chat via groups or personal messaging. It has helped lower my anxiety and irritability. Besides, I have no need to know everything even my best friends and family do on a minute to minute basis. It seems like many people I know aren’t as active on social media as previously. But, I have always preferred quality to quantity in terms of conversations. Just because I can know something about even friends doesn’t mean I want to. Some things I am just not interested in. I just don’t have enough time or energy to respond to things I like, let alone everything else. I don’t get mad over every piece of advertisements I get in my mail box (and most of what I get in the mail anymore is junk mail), so I feel the same way anymore about when my friends or family post things that I am not interested in. I rarely post comments on youtube or twitter anymore, let alone read comment sections. I just don’t have time to. I’m too busy finding things I enjoy and doing things I like to engage with people I’ll probably never meet. When I do engage with people I’ll never meet, it’s over shared interests and I try to act as if I’m talking to these people over a cup of coffee in person rather than just behind a computer screen and keyboard. My online interactions have become more enjoyable and civil once I tricked myself into believing I have having these conversations with someone sitting in the same room with me. It doesn’t always work, but my online interactions are less contentious and stressful than even three years ago.