Even though I’ve been sleeping more than normal the last several days, I think I’m starting to settle down and return to normal. Sometimes a few days of extra sleep and minimal caffeine can help me recharge. Got some of my disability pension money this morning, so I had to buy some groceries. I don’t think I’ve been getting enough vitamins and minerals from my usual winter diet, so I picked up some vitamins, fish oil pills, and fresh fruits. Haven’t had much for fruit this winter. Could be why I’ve been more irritable than usual the last couple weeks.
Haven’t talked with much of anyone the last several days. Been feeling short tempered and paranoid enough that I’ve more or less just kept to myself this week. It does get boring and lonely at times. But, unfortunately, so many people in my apartment complex and my life in general have just been feeling moodier than usual lately. All of the bad weather and floods the last couple weeks have kept me in my town. I really don’t want to go anywhere now or see anyone. I just no longer want to be bothered by toxic and negative people. Those types just drain the life and joy out of me. At least online I can block those people and opt out of conversations without causing a scene. Yeah, I’m the one trying to remain upbeat and optimist and people claim I’m anti social. Anymore I’m my own best company, some days my only company.