No we don’t usually get to see the Northern Lights in Nebraska, but this is a cool picture anyway. Where I live we are in the middle of winter. Been a typical cold winter. Haven’t had any major snow storms but have had several small snows. Haven’t gone anywhere for the last few days because of the ice and cold. It gets dark by 6pm and doesn’t get light out until around 8am this time of year. So I have long, drawn out nights to just sit and be anxious. To try to ward this off I usually walk in the hallways for about 15 to 20 minutes every night, usually around 10 or 11 pm. If I go too early, I’ll be dodging too many people to get a good walk in. It’s too bad my apartment complex doesn’t have a small exercise room or even a treadmill in the community room. Stuff like this would run a high risk of being vandalized in here. I’ve seen just about everything come up missing in this complex. People have stolen even house plants and door mats. I’d have tenants trying to pirate my wireless internet if it wasn’t a private, password protected network.
If I sound a bit irritable it’s only because I’ve been home bound for a few days. I admit to drinking too much coffee on cold days to warm myself up. Not only am I on a caffeine crash, I’m also a little bored by being inside. In America we have a slang term called “cabin fever.” This merely means that a person is getting irritable and anxious from being forced to be inside most of the time, usually during the winter. I imagine it was an old pioneer and homesteader term. While we have only a few inches of snow on the ground, the ice is still pretty bad. I saw two tenants slip in the parking lot just today.
But I did get to spend a little time outdoors just last night. We had a good snow last night with almost no wind (a rarity in Nebraska where we usually have wind almost all the time in winter). Just sat outside and watched the snow for an hour. May not sound like much but with a mental illness even the little things can bring a sense of peace and calm.
Not much going on during the winter months but short days, long nights, trying to squeeze in a few minutes of walking whenever I can, arm weights three nights a week, some youtube, and computer games. It’s nights like this that make me look forward to the spring months of April, May, and June, my favorite times of the year.