Since the end of the holidays things have slowed down in my life. I have gotten quite a bit done. I have also more stable than the last several months. I attribute this greater stability to not just the end of outside stressors but also on how much sleep I get.
I confess to being a night owl. Have been my entire life. Even I need at least seven hours of straight sleep in order to function well. I can get away with pulling two all nighters in a row and sleeping for maybe five hours in the morning hours every two to three weeks. But it takes longer to recover than in years past. A lack of sleep makes me irritable, short tempered, and unable to focus if it goes on for more than a few days. So to cut this off I’ll reduce caffine, especially after lunch for a couple days. This helps with falling asleep easier. It allows me to sleep at times when the normals of the world do. After a couple days of more consistent sleep I feel like I’m reset. I can probably do one all nighter every five to seven days without much problem. But I try to sneak a second one in I’m asking for trouble. Three in a row is asking for problems. After my grandmother died and my subsequent car wreck, I was pulling two to three all nighters per week. No wonder I had two breakdowns within three months. I usually have only one per year, often in late August or early September.
In short, I need sleep. It takes a toll on my mental stability if I don’t get consistent sleep for more than a few days. Mental illness can be made more severe without good sleep. I know mine can be worse when I’m not sleeping well.