Haven’t had much to report for the last few days. Been getting out of my apartment a little again. Spent a few hours out the other day because of maintenance work. I still don’t socialize much in person as it’s just too big of a drain dealing with rude and irritable people most of the time. Sadly it seems like most people I deal with are in foul moods more often than not. This is regardless of whether it is online or in person interactions. It’s times like this that make me glad I can keep myself company for days at a time if necessary. I have too many problems with my mental illness to be dealing with anger and rudeness from others.
I’m starting to sleep during the days again. But if I want to avoid people that seems the way to be. Let me rephrase that, I don’t want to avoid people at all. I just want to avoid rude, hateful, and stupid people. I find it sad that we as a civilization had almost godlike powers to get in touch with people all over the world that we would otherwise never met and we squander it tearing other people apart and subdividing ourselves. I would love to see people stop this madness but I imagine that’s a pipe dream. I actually think some people want to be angry and miserable. I think some people do not want to be happy. I hope I am wrong but I look at their actions and have to wonder.
As I have been spending much more time alone the last several weeks I have been preforming some mental exercises in an attempt to just let my mind wander and think. One thing I think about is what will future generations in future centuries condemn us in the early 21st century for. People today readily condemn past generations and civilizations for their attitudes toward slavery, women’s rights, religious zealotry, bigoted attitudes, and general ignorance. Maybe future generations will curse us for being too sensitive about what others say about us, maybe they’ll hate us for not reigning in our industrial pollution, maybe they’ll hate us for subdividing ourselves into factions and digital tribes, they may hate us for eating meat, they may hate us for medicating our children who don’t like school, maybe they’ll think us too narrow minded and hypocritical, maybe they’ll hate us for waging wars, maybe they’ll hate our general distrust of science, maybe they’ll think we are religious zealots. In short, we don’t know. We are not as enlightened as we like to pride ourselves on. We as a species have come a long way since we started out as hunter gathers in forgotten antiquity, let alone since we started building villages and cities. But if we think that we, in 2018, are the pinnacle of human wisdom and culture, then we are so sadly mistaken. We can do much better than we currently are. And, guess what, we will do much better in the years, decades, and centuries ahead providing we don’t destroy ourselves in some short sighted stupid fit of collective insanity. We are on our way to achieving some really super cool things within the next several decades, let alone in the far future. Sure the ride is rough getting there. There are times I have my doubts about my fellow man. But the fact is that most advances are discovered by a tiny fraction of the human race. The rest of us are along for the ride. We can follow, try but fail miserably to stop change, or get out of the way. Change is coming. Change is inevitable no matter how much we snipe at each other in our social interactions. The world is a cool place in spite what the news man tells us. If it bleeds it leads because that is what our species developed to notice first. It was a brilliant survival strategy when we were Stone Age hunters but it’s causing us unnecessary grief and anguish in the Information Age. Part of me would love to stick around to an old age for no other reason to see negative fools and naysayers proven wrong and I can laugh at their fear and hate.
People should be aware of what is going right in the world and in their own communities. People too often make unnecessary bad decisions simply because they don’t know what is going right.