I started the process of changing to new medications a few days ago. And I’m noticing some changes already. I have found I actually need a little less sleep now. Used to be I got 8 hours a night like clock work, now I need only 6 to 7 hours. I have even been making a point to get out of my complex more. Went to the park for an hour and chatted with a bunch of neighbors on Saturday. Found out three tenants are moving out within a month. One of those tenants was the grumpiest and angriest man I ever met in my entire life. I mentioned him in a previous blog. He’s one of these old guys who doesn’t believe in mental illness. He believed that people like me were just making these problems up because we “are lazy and don’t want to do any real work.” I hate people like that. Guys like that are petty people and just have to make everyone else miserable. Needless to say I won’t miss this ornery old man. His impending departure was the happiest news I have heard in weeks.
Got out quite a bit today. It was quite warm here today, more like late spring than early spring. Currently have a baseball game on in the back ground. I enjoy watching baseball. It is more relaxing than football, that’s why I enjoy it more. I’ve been out more the last few days than the previous two weeks. In addition to wanting to get out and about more I’ve been wanting to socialize more. I actually felt lonely today for the first time in months. I previously haven’t minded the solitude and have actually wanted it. But now I’m starting to actually want to socialize.
I’ve been listening to more music too. Found out I like some of the newer dance, techno, and dubstep music. Normally an older guy like myself would like only music they grew up with. But I have never cared about when music was made. Good music is good music, I don’t care if it’s Mozart, Louis Armstrong, old Delta Blues, John Lennon, hard rock, hip hop, or techno. I never did like these old guys who always complained about the “lousy kids.” So I vowed at age thirteen that when I became an old guy myself, I’d go easier on the kids than my elders did. Been watching a little more tv too. I’ve been watching ‘Marco Polo’ on Netflix. If you are turned off by violent shows, I don’t recommend it. But it is a cool show about how different cultures interact with each other. Another series with similar themes I’ve been rematching is ‘Hell on Wheels’, which is about the building of the first transcontinental railroad in America immediately after the Civil War. I still watch ‘Star Trek’ every so often. But with wanting to socialize outside my apartment more, I may be finding myself with less down time. And that would definitely be a change.