I was recently demonetized on Medium. They offered me no explanation or means to appeal the decision. As a result, I shut down my Medium account. It was too bad as I was making some decent money for several months.

How have I been mentally? Some would argue not too well as I have made my peace with the fact that I will someday die. Don’t worry, I’m not suicidal or self harming. I have just lost most of my fear of dying. I guess a couple near death experiences and long stays in the hospital will do that.

My mobility is still limited. I put in some applications for long term care. My parents are in declining health and can do only so much. I dread the thought of losing my freedom and most of my funding. Nursing homes take almost all of your social security and disability. I also hated how no one in those facilities cares about the patients.

Since I’m probably going to a long-term facility eventually, I signed a Do Not Resituate (DNR) order. I’ll be damned to be essentially brain dead and being kept alive by machines. I saw too much of that in the eight months I lived in a long-term care facility back in Nebraska.

My blood numbers are alright. My kidney function is still off. I sleep in the recliner every night as it’s easier on my back and knees. I’ve lost some weight since getting out of the hospital two months ago.

I don’t have much planned for Christmas this year. I bought some stuff for my nephews and niece. I guess as rough as this year has been I’m not in much of a mood to celebrate. I’d say that I’m glad 2024 is over but I fear that 2025 will be worse.